Yo Harleyeaah

still kickin' fo the best.

Friday, December 24, 2010

choose ..



A certain marj in the universe said, "One thing you must realize, these feelings will pop up again at certain times in your life..."

My reply to that would be my infamous "i can attest to that" line.

They do. When everything seems to be okay, when you are on steady ground... they pop up all of a sudden, shaking you once again.

The past three days counted as those "certain times when they will pop up again". Monday and Tuesday was smooth. For a long time, I've never felt so peaceful, so secured, so confident that good things will happen just as I wait.

Wednesday, however, was the killer. I lost my phone and there goes the trigger. Having merely sleep and limited my connection to people.One of my friend (kat) probably have heard this from me a lot of times. While there are YM, Facebook, name it, as options - they're not just as accessible.

Friday, I went home in the morning drunk decided to take a taxi. So, i hailed the bright of session road. . The "hinge" part of the taxi door hit my right thigh and knee, and boy did it hurt. I wanted to cry, not because I was in pain, but because I felt so afraid. Masakit, nakakatakot... at magisa ako. But i tried to fight it over and focused on getting home safe, and thankfully, I made it. Ikaw ng lasing ksi hmpft

The moment I arrived, I told tta mercy my board mate. My news seemed more like a trivia to her. "Oh? Talaga?" was her response. And I know that wasn't what I wanted to hear. I went to bed after and tried to sleep, but couldn't. I did one thing I knew I had to do... CRY. I read the blog “when your down to nothing God is up to something. after but none of what I read sank in. I tried to talk to God but all I could mutter was, "Lord, I feel so alone." I kept on repeating Psalms 62:5, "Find rest o my soul in God alone..." I calmed down after sometime. I tried going back to sleep again but still couldn't.

I borrowed eric’s phone and texted my friend brandie about it. he sent me an online message after and asked me about what happened and then I shared. If the news sounded like a trivia to tta mercy, the news sounded like something that's happened to another person and not me. "Ay hala!" and then he shifts to a new topic. Again, not the response I wanted to hear.

I was seeking for comfort. Not just a sigh of relief to know that i'm okay and alive. Yes, I was hurt. But know too how horror-ed I was. That's what I wanted comfort for more than anything else. Conversation with friend was over after a few minutes. I pretended to be okay. "khate, your own cares."

Went back to bed and had that lonely feeling again. Before I knew it, kinakain na naman ako ng thoughts at emotions ko. I felt lonely and empty. There went the longing again, the wishing, the going back to the past. And then i was able to fall asleep.

Woke up .. I was drowning in my emotions already, add to that my hurting leg. The drama didn't stop as I almost scream, I felt damn hurt. For more! And then there were tears.

And that was it, surefire, khate’s not okay. khate's unstable once more. I tried to read blogs again but none of what I read sank in. Read a devotional online and boy, was it timely. The question was "have you left your heart unguarded?" I read through it but nothing was really sinking in.

Caught arv online and talked to him. Drama. Drama. Drama. None of what he was advising was also sinking in. I was just so full of emotions. Then he went offline.

blogings again
"don't let him have a foothold on you. be strong. see how the Lord helped us through everything, and whenever manggugulo ang kaaway. remember, God is for you, who can be against you?"
- It's true, the enemy will always try to take away from us the victory that we have in God. And the key is not to let the enemy take it away from us.

And then I remembered what my friend told me, your emotions are not your master. God is.

And as a response to loneliness, the devotional suggested to think of this: "According to Jesus, you have a Heavenly Father who loves you, you know" Plus the devotional quoted: Here’s His promise… “Do not be anxious about anything, but in everything, by prayer and petition, with thanksgiving, present your requests to God. And the peace of God, which transcends all understanding, will guard your hearts and your minds in Christ Jesus.” (Philippians 4: 6 & 7, NIV)

marj was right. When you're drowned in your emotions. Fight it! Drown yourself in the word.

And this morning I will once again tell myself, "Find rest my soul in God alone. My Hope comes from Him. He alone is my rock and salvation. He is my fortress. I will not be shaken."

I have to remember to hold on to THE rock so even if the ground gets a little or not little shaky, I'll stay still.
-khate

Thursday, December 16, 2010

But I Love You..



AW

TO BE OR NOT TO BE

To be or not to be..
Im staring  at the clock its quarter to 3 i’m tossin to bed cause i just cant sleep..cause your not here with me im reachin out for you i wish i can talk to you. Tryn to figure out whats goin on with me im used to have all the answers for everything oh boy ! tsk dunno what to do. Its so crazy a u simply amaze me. All the games i played and the 3pings im doin seems so lame to me im goin down with this new me ahggh but still i dunno if your tellin the truth or just 3pin. 


leave the past :)

I was scanning my old sim when I saw your messages way back 2008. It made me smile while reading the messages and then I paused for a bit, reminiscing. These are few of the perfect memories you left me that I will treasure forever. I’m finally letting you go even though it breaks me; I’m going to put everything away that would bring me pain. I know someday we’ll see each other again and when the time comes, you’ll see the same smile, just as how you made me smile the way I used to—just as how we shared the true meaning of life.

Ina - Suddenly [with lyrics]



after ng fall :)

Officially yours- craig david :)

Verse 1]
Thinkin' how the story goes
You're helpless and I'm wishin'
Put the film inside my mind
But there's a big scene that I'm missin'
As I re-read my lines
I think I said this, I should've said that
Did you edit me out of your mind
'Cos in a flash you had disappeared, gone (gone)
Before the curtain falls
And we act this out again
Maybe I should risk it all and state

[Chorus]
That I'm officially going on the record
To say I'm in love with you
I'm officially everything you hope that I would be
This time I'll tell the truth
I'm officially wrong I know
For letting you go the way I did
Unconditionally more than I ever was before
I'm officially yours
La da day, la da day
La da da da da oh

[Verse 2]
Travellin' down this road again
Gotta make a few decisions
Don't want you to feel this hurt again
That's why I'm hopin' that you'll listen
If you let me press rewind
I'll rehearse every word I should have said
'Cos girl I'm ready to make things right
Here on this stage so we can move on (on)
And before the curtain falls
And we act this out again
Missin' pieces I'll resolve so stay

[Chorus]
I'm officially going on the record
To say I'm in love with you
I'm officially everything you hope that I would be
This time I'll tell the truth
I'm officially wrong I know
For letting you go the way I did
Unconditionally more than I ever was before

[Bridge]
Things I should have said
Like I appreciate the time that I spend with you
Inspire me with the smile I put on your pretty face
My world comes alive, now I know (now I know it babe)
This time I'm not letting go
'Cos I'm officially yours (oh oh)

[Chorus]
Officially everything you hope that I would be
This time I'll tell the truth
I'm officially wrong I know
For letting you go the way I did
Unconditionally more than I ever was before

I'm officially going on the record
To say I'm in love with you
I'm officially everything you hope that I would be
This time I'll tell the truth
I'm officially wrong I know
For letting you go the way I did
Unconditionally more than I ever was before

[Outro]
Girl I'm unconditionally yours (oh yeah)
Officially yours, your man (La da day, la da day, la da day)
Girl I'm unconditionally yours (La da da da da oh)
Officially yours, I am

Girl I'm unconditionally yours (listen what I'm tryna say)
Officially yours, your man (oh oh)
Girl I'm unconditionally yours
Officially yours, I am

Tuesday, December 14, 2010

saygoodbye


SAYGOODBYE – chris brown
Dang! Everytime na naririnig ko tong kantang  to it breaks my heart and i dunno y? D namn cguro dahil d pa ko nakapag move on kay mack ung 3 years ko b4. Tumatak lng siguro skin to ksi firstime ako ginago ni mack eto ung naalala ko. Ansakit parin solid, naiiyak parin ako. Maganda rin balik balikan ang nakaraan right? Ginago nya ko nun nambabae sya . mhae name nung girl. Im so down saknya tipong solid talga. Nasa net shop kmi nun naghahanap ng songs and then pinanuod ko music video netong kantang to’asar na asar ako kasi uhmm panuorin nyo nlng vdeo neto haha  sbi ko kay mack nun “solid namn dhad ang gagu ni chrisbrown” sbi nya “ano ka ba mhie ee video lng yan. Scripted “. tapos nun mga 3 days ok naman kmi as in ok na ok pero meron na ung gbi na di xa nagttx un na ung start na pag loloko nya nararamdamn ko my kakaiba ng nangyayari sknya. Saamin , nahuli ko xa my kasmang babae si mhae nga nkipaghiwalay ako pero ako parin ung bumabalik sknya hanggang sa sinabi ko na ayoko na talga muka na ko gago tanga nagshot ako nun wala man lng ko masabhan ng problema kc wala ko sa baguio nung time na un lam mo ba ung gsm blue? With straw un pare lasing na lasing ako. Ang stupid ko pa nun.  Gang sa nagmove on na ko on my own MOVE ON TALAGA pero napansin ko momove on ako pabalik sknya .awwww stupid noh. Nagkabalikan kmi pero  wala na ko tiwala nun. Si mack nagturo skin wag magtiwala kya blame it on mack lol
Wala naalala ko lng haha aning ! un lng walng kwenta no hahaha GOODBYE!

over


OVER ..
Today i just figured that i should end this stupidity before it totally kills me ! I have proven time and again that relationship whose foundation is a weak as infant and a relationship that sprung out of lies and nurtured with lies will never head a rightful path. Yet i continued playin with the game believing we can work things out. But what could you expect from a LONG DISTANCE LOVE AFFAIR? I should not have allowed us to reach this far, i should not have invested too MUCH, and i should not have played the game where we would all be losers hurting at the end. But what’s the use of my bla bla bla over things that can never be undone? So the mature thing to do now is to LET Go of it at once.. will i still have the courage to lose grip ? today, im putting a quotation to this stupid sentence a PERIOD ....THANK YOU AND GOODBYE ! 

just another talkin : bagay tau.. :)


Just another talking: ano tayo ?TAO TAYO hindi BAGAY TAYO
he: hey khate watsup?!
K8:yea im good kw musta ka? Bkit ka napatawag
He: im fine namn wala unli e.. noh bago.
K8: nothings new, cge tols my gagawin pa ko. Tawag ka nlng maya
(unli lng pala sig ago)
He: iniiwasan mo ata ako hehe hndi cge ingat jan noh
K8: ok ikaw din..baba mo na
He: ghe. La bang i love u jan ?
K8: ocge i love me.
Woah i didn’t expect him to call me again. I don’t know what to say kaya parang nagging ilag ako sa knya. Oh my gosh yang kntng yan kinakanta nya skin before.. walng kmi pero ok kami no commitments pero were like hmm kAMI? Sarap pakingan noh. KAMI.. damn everyday magkausap sa phone hated sundo nya ako food3p laughing3p movie3p lahat na ng trippings ohh damn i miss him whenever he trip on people who aint cool jan xa pinakamagaling.. sound3p kung makakanta kmi sabay batuhan ng mga lyrics i get jealous whenever sinasbi nya hmm tol i met a girl na ganto ganyan ako namn si ok sige pkilala mo skin ee di namn nya pinapakilala alm ko ginagawa lng nya ung mga ganun na kwento para magselos ako. Alm na nya ksi kung ano  kakapikon ko .. were allgood hanggang sa he asked me ano tayo? Oh well na stone at inabot nanamn ako ng kapraningan hmm TAO ? lol stupidity strikes.. aasar kc un pag alam serious tapos lolokohin, pero i made him smile dat time kc binanatan ko ng BAGAY tayo haha corny corny pero ewan ko were inlove lng siguro or ako lng inlove that time ok kmi tapos biglng POOOFF!
K8: ahmm susunduin mo ba ko ?
He: aw khate i cant make it lalaro ko dota ngaun kainitan ee
K8: aw d mo ko sinama nalalaro pa namn ako haist daya
He: di namn sa lahat ng oras kelngan magkasma tau..
(ako napatigil FUCK!! Mother founder! Na stone ako sa sinabi nya,, anskit kya nun noh lam mo un solidongpulido. Kaya naisip ko na wag nlng magreply)
He: ei you mad khate?
K8: sorry l8 reply.. kakatapos ko lng maligo. Oo nga namn nakakasawa ka na ksing kasama hahaha joke lng :p
He: wohooo kya pla nagpapasundo ka at gusto mo mkilaro ng dota ok kkasawa pla e.
K8 joke lng namn tol
He: ohh tol? (yaw nya ksi na tinatawag xa ng tol e)
K8:oo tol haha (jealousy out of anger i was at my worst but i cant help it. All i want is to hurt him just like the way he hurt me with his words)
Ahmm di na xa nag reply
Kinagabihan ..
He: wer u at TOL lets roll dala ko tsekot ..
Di na ko nag reply nun nakikipag alak na ko that time..
“i wanna be on you .. said excuse me lil moma...... (ring tone ng fone ko xa namili nyan J)
K8: hello san ka?
He:ikaw ang nasaan ?! bat ang ingay i thot di ka labas?
K8: shot kmi ee san ka ba ?
He: sundo kita san ka now na
K8:sige meet nlng tau session mcdo
He: go kna wag mo baba fone gang sa makasky ka ng taxi
K8:maka utos ka parng batman matic?
He: dami reklamo sige na
K8: gusto mo ako si darna ?! paalam pa ko tawag ka after 5 mins
He: fine
Ewan ko na kung anong dating naming noon pero gusto ko xa makasama kya binilisan ko na magpaalam sa mg friends ko
W8ng na ko sa session noon..
Tnxt ko na xa.
“Ă„ndito na ko san kna” ..( middle of the nyt lakas ng ulan.. not complaining just stating facts)
After 10 mins reply nya..
He:anjan ka pa?
K8: malamng asan kna ba uwi na ko tgal mo what took u so long ba?
He: i cant make it. Hinarang ako ng tropa alak e
(alam mo ung feeling na shit ur tryin na libangin ung self mo tapos biglang tatawag xa ansya mo paasa lng pla..sobrang hopeless na ko nun hay taena talaga.)
K8: ok sna tnxt mo ko agad w8ng is not a good habit ghe tc jan
So naisipan ko na gumimik nlng mag isa ko sakay ng taxi “kuya albertos po” hmm naiiyak na ko na nababad3p taena talaga .nag aalak na ko sa bar malolowbat pa fone ko im still w8 for his tx. Wala padin its like 3 am na  nagtx xa,, ayoko pa umuwi kya nag khaldis pa ko.
He: just got home
K8: ohh thats good.
He:asan kna ?
K8:puso mo?
He:tinnatanong kita asan kna ?
K8:khaldis alone uwi narin ko mea mea
He: go ka d2 bhay d2 kna dumeretcho..
K8:my bhay ako dun ako uuwi
He:wag mo antayin sunduin kita jan
K8:bhala ka jan
Sinundo namn nya ko he texted me “d2 na ko san kna “so lumabas ako
He: oh lsing kna pumasok kna d2
K8: ayoko mya nagshoshot pa ko,
He:tang ina namn eh
K8:tang ina talaga pinagaantay mo ko ng wala damn it bhala ka jan .
So pumasok ako sa loob ng khaldis sumunod xa umupo sya sa tabi ko naiiyak na ko nun pero tumayo ko sbi nya ohh san ka pupunta ? sa Cr bkit sama ka ? so nung nasa cr na ko din a napigilan pag iyak ko pag labas ko la nna xa sa table ung bag ko asa knya na nasa sasakyan nya so pumunta na ko dun hmm sbi nya hated na kita sbi ko ok . nakasleep ako sa sasakyan tapos nagstop over xa sa 7/11  natulog ulit ako pagising ko asa garahe na nila kmi “oh kala ko ba hahatid mo na ko bhay ko ba toh ? umakyat kna sa taas pag nakasalubong mo si mama umayos ka. Park ko lng to.
Nung pagdating ko sa kwarto nya nagbhis na ko, pag akyat nya my dala xang 3 beer at coffee sbi ko sknya “ano yan ipapainom mo skin? Sumagot xa malamng mangunguya mo ba to? (gagu ng mahal ko no) inabot nya skin ung kape sby sbi kung nagugutom ka kumuha ka sa baba ano ka prensesa?! (parang bhay ko namn un na touch ako ksi parang part na ko ng family) sumagot ako di ikaw nlng haha pinapanuod ko xang nagshoshot hbng nagkakape ako. Nagusap kmi ng masinsinan..
Sbi nya .sorry khate sby iyak that time napatawad ko na xa .. pero di ako nagslita sbi ko pla ohh para kng tanga bkit ka umiiyak ? sbi nya tang ina mo mahal na ksi kita kaso tang ina di ko lam kung ano tayo. Sbay sbi ko tang ina ang tanda na natin di pa natin lam kung ano edi TAO!  Dun na xa natawa J ok na kmi



Sunday, November 21, 2010

.......oh no!

Now when I come to ya ,
 ya yellin, tellin me ya gone
/ But I guess your leavin again/
 We been here many times before
, come on its so old/
 I think its best I let'cha go roll
 Need ta stress ya no more Oh no,
 I think it would be better if ya leave me now
 Stead of repeatin the same old episode
 The one ya think I'm cheatin me
 Yes I can see that I'm the reason ya greavin
 Blowin on this potent weed is really got me thinkin



Maybe its me thats makin you hate me
Maybe its me thats drivin you crazy
Maybe its me n I cant be mad if you replace me
Maybe its me thats just not ready for relationships



At home n now I'm all alone/ Why do I keep hearin this same sad songs/ 
Remindin me of things I lost/ I finally see I had it all..

Thursday, November 18, 2010

in pain




@4 years old
She sees her mama waiting for her outside school. She runs towards her and falls flat on face. She looks up and there is the hand of her mother helping her with the pain.

@10 years old 
She comes back home crying for a loss of friend. A friend who betrayed her for another. There is the hand of a grand mothermother trying to wipe her tears.(thanx lola aning :) love u and i miss u ..


@15 years old
She is in her teen age and there is a guy harassing her. There is a brother to protect her and she feels safe.kua niksz thanzx

@17 years old

She is in love. She has abondoned every one for this one man. o by the way the name is mack lol



@19 years old
She is going through an emotional crisis unable to understand her feelings. There is a sister who helps her understand those feelings.

@21 years old
She is in pain. Yet another pain and nobody to understand her or help her. The pain of losing one and all for none. No love alone and steady. She looks up for one hand and there is none.


And sees her own shadow today.



:(

Monday, November 15, 2010

waaaaayyyy bacccccckkkkk


my heart is broken into pieces, it hurts like hell if the one you love doesn't trust you in what you are doing...i can still feel the pain deep inside me, it is so unfair...all i want is peace that I'm looking for in this relationship...i felt like i am stupid to give out everything for love and sacrifice just for a relationship that will end in just a flick of a finger...i know that we built this relationship with love, understanding and i believe trust but everything is gone for no reason at all...i don't think that he really loves me because he don't trust me anymore and i know myself...i cant do that to him, i cant be with another guy while i am committed to him because i have a promise to his mom that i will take care of him for the rest of my life and i love him very much but i don't think he knows that...i did everything i can to make this relationship last and stronger and to prove to him that this love and relationship is worth fighting for but i cant feel that he's making an effort to do the same thing for me...
i know its not too late for reconciliation but its not right to give up four years and one month for just a small mistake...i admit somehow its my fault but breaking up is not the only solution! now i know that if you love someone set him/her free but i believe that if you love someone you have to fight for the love and the relationship you build together...if you really love someone learn to sacrifice and that is what i am doing now...i just cant believe that he can easily give up everything that we fight for...it is so unbelievable that simple issue is a very big deal for him, i cant take this feeling anymore and i really don't know what to do!!! but i have one question in my mind....WHY??? every time we have a fight he keeps on insisting a break up, i just cant understand why is he doing this to me? if our fight is his fault, i can forgive him if we talk about the issue but if i have a fault or even a small mistake, he gets mad and keeps on insisting a break up...i know there's a reason for everything and i believe that he has a reason behind it... if he is already fed up with me, all he need to do is tell me why??? have i done something wrong?
 i really don't know his reason behind the break up and whats going on in his mind!!! there is no third party involve in my part but he kept on thinking that there's another guy, i cant take this anymore...i've always proved to him that he is the only one i love and i don't know what to do to keep him since he thinks that way...he's demanding for space and i think I'm ready to give it to him i just cant take the pain that I'm feeling right now, i really don't know what to do....if you demand trust, so do i!!!i have the right to know what is going on to make this relationship alive, i respect his decision if thats what he wants but i demand an explanation...i don't want to think that he is the one who's doing something fishy behind my back because i do trust him and i love him...all i want is the reason behind his decision!!!
i know it is not the end of my life or the end of the world for me, if we are not meant for each other why insisting myself to him...i will try to handle this pain since i love him very much and i know that someday this broken heart will heal and time will tell if we can be together again!!!i will try to ignore my feelings and i hope i can move on already but the pain is still there...right now no one can ever replace him in my heart, i gave him another chance before and just in case he gave me another chance that will be the last time...this will also be the last time that i will cry and i promise to myself:"i don't want to be hurt like hell because i know there's happiness in heaven and it is waiting for me"...
if you read this, i hope there's still a chance for us to be together...don't worry i am not that desperate to commit a sin like suicide for just a love that i cannot revive but one thing's for sure, i will never love a man like i loved him and i know that i will survive this pain that i'm feeling right now!!! one day i know everything is gonna be alright but i hope if that day comes, the wound in my heart is already healed and i can find peace and true love....ciao!

empty chair. :(


A man's daughter had asked the local minister to come and pray with her father. When the minister arrived, he found the man lying in bed with his head propped up on two pillows.

 


An empty chair sat beside his bed. The minister assumed that the old fellow had been informed of his visit. "I guess you were expecting me” he said.



“No, who are you?" said the father.



The minister told him his name and then remarked, "I saw the empty chair and I figured you knew I was going to show up, "Oh yeah, the chair," said then bedridden man.



"Would you mind closing the door?"  Puzzled, the minister shut the door.  



"I have never told anyone this, not even my daughter," said the man. "But all of my life I have never known how to pray. At church I used to hear the pastor talk about prayer, but it went right over my head." “I abandoned any attempt at prayer," the old man continued, "until one day four years ago;my best friend said to me:



“Johnny, prayer is just a simple matter of having a conversation with Jesus. Here is what I suggest.  Sit down in a chair; place an empty chair in front of you, and in faith see Jesus on the chair.  It's not spooky because He promised, 'I will be with you always.' "Then just speak to him in the same way you're doing with me right now."



"So, I tried it and I've liked it so much that I do it a couple of hours every day.  I'm careful though if my daughter saw me talking to an empty chair, she'd either have a nervous breakdown or send me off to the funny farm."  


The minister was deeply moved by the story and encouraged the old man to continue on thejourney. Then he prayed with him, anointed him with oil, and returned to the church.



Two nights later the daughter called to tell the minister that her daddy had died that afternoon. Did he die in peace?" he asked.


Yes, when I left the house about two o'clock, he called me over to his bedside, told me he loved me and kissed me on the cheek. When I got back from the store an hour later, I found him dead. But there was something strange about his death. Apparently, just before Daddy died, he leaned over and rested his head on the chair beside the bed.  What do you make of that?"


The minister wiped a tear from his eye and said, "I wish we could all go like that."



Prayer is one of the best free gifts we receive.


If God brings you to it, He will bring you through it.

hurts and benefits.


A story tells that two friends were walking through the desert. During some point of the journey they had an argument, and one friend slapped the other one in the face. The one who got slapped was hurt, but without saying anything, wrote in the sand: "TODAY MY BEST FRIEND SLAPPED ME IN THE FACE."

They kept on walking until they found an oasis, where they decided to take a bath. The one, who had been slapped, got stuck in the mire and started drowning, but the friend saved him. After the friend recovered from the near drowning, he wrote on a stone: "TODAY MY BEST FRIEND SAVED MY LIFE."

The friend who had slapped and saved his best friend asked him, "After I hurt you, you wrote in the sand and now, you write on a stone, why?"

The other friend replied: "When someone hurts us, we should write it down in sand where winds of forgiveness can erase it away. But, when someone does something good for us, we must engrave it in stone where no wind can ever erase

LEARN TO WRITE YOUR HURTS IN THE SAND,
AND
TO CARVE YOUR BENEFITS IN STONE.

Tuesday, November 9, 2010

so sweet ..boss balita ??

" i dont know what u'v got girl..or  just what keeps u on my mind..
-chrizo seneres..

its so sweet diba.. i dont even know kung sino yang si chrizo .. nkita ko lng status nya sa fb .. an swerte namn ng chic na pinagsbhan nya nyan :))

anyway actually la nanamn ako magawa.. :) same shit petics petics lng ..
ikaw ng badtrip ee noh .. hahaha supa dupa bad3p ko knina
dahil sa isang guy na ewan ko kung ano ba talaga ko sknya.
taena nmn kc kung makapag bitaw xa ng mga salita skin
talgang mapapafall ka.. mapagpangap si gago..

nakakapikon pero ok lng namis ko lng siguro un mga tipong ganun
tagal na ko single.. single??
wartever.. !! actually this past few months my nagiging karir namn ako
pero natatakot na ko makipag commit .. i trust no G ! lol

ewan ko ba bkit kc gangster binabagsakan ko ..
ee mga players yan haist..

kgabi my namit ako si roy**
shot shot..

knina nagtx xa ..

roy**: hi
Khate:hu dA
Roy**:roY**
khate ai oh
Roy**:3p kita
KhAte: ok
roy**: hmm my bf ka ?
khate: walng reply


di ko na xa nereplyan ewan ko la ko panahon sa mga ganyan letche ..

kht namn alak alak ako or party party..

im after all no one's BITCh!!

hmm.. ewan ko ba hahahaha wala lng  nakakainis .la lng magawa kea blog blog


Saturday, October 30, 2010

same shit


October 28, 2010..
I refuse to believe that you don’t care .. L

Its already 2:00 am and still im kickin .. damn we cant sleep, talkin about boys boys boys..
Tine: te taena ng mga lalaking yan manloloko ee noh sarap bawian.. haist
Khate: same old shit ka nmn kasi tapos na nga binabalik-balikan mo pa.. kung hindi nag work out noon sa tingin mo mag wowork out ulit ngaun?
Tine: ngeks kowts eto.
Khate: yan boka k okay jha noon ee 3p nya ksi balikan un ex nya.. hahaha un ex nya na nagpahamak sa knya hahaha lol pag ako lng chiknun apota baka ako pa nagtangol sknya..
Tine:ganyan ginwa k okay arkiie non e
---
Damn nakakalungkot isipin na sa panahon ngaun bakit wala ng matinong lalaki L
Tine:bakit pa kc nauso mga playa playa
Khate: oo nga ee solid na noh kung noon tamang magloloko patalikod ee ngaun taena garapalan na haist
Nakakainis isipin..
Walana ung tipong mag seseryoso meron man kaso di mo namn gusto. Lol it reminds me of 6 fingers!
Knock on wood ..
When a guy is away from his girl all he wantedis her trust..
But  on the girls part all she want is his FAITHFULLNESS
Kaso wala ng ganean ngaun trust no man
Wala nang kwenta mga pinagsasabi ko ee noh bad3p ang boring kasi .. same shit different day. L

Friday, October 29, 2010

playas chnge but the game remains dsame


Few months after a heart breaking experience, after all those weeks of crying. I realize i was walking on a different road. It surely rocky but i can say that as i walk, i saw pieces of my self broken. So in picked it up. One by one and gently put the pieces back together and now i can say i had moved on and im taking all steps forward one way of saying there’s no turning back..

Monday, October 25, 2010

When you're down to nothing, God is up to something.

I just want to share with you guys, i just got this from a friend through email...

This is beautiful! Try not to cry.


She jumped up as soon as she saw the surgeon come out of the operating room. She said: "How is my little boy ? Is he going to be all right ? When can I see him ?"

The surgeon said, "I'm sorry. We did all we could, but your boy didn't make it."

Sally said, "Why do little children get cancer ? Doesn't God care any more ? Where were you, God, when my son needed you ?"

The surgeon asked, "Would you like some time alone with your son ? One of the nurses will be out in a few minutes, before he's transported to the university."

Sally asked the nurse to stay with her while she said good bye to son. She ran her fingers lovingly through his thick red curly hair. "Would you like a lock of his hair ?" the nurse asked.

Sally nodded yes. The nurse cut a lock of the boy's hair, put it in a plastic bag and handed it to Sally.

The mother said, "It was Jimmy's idea to donate his body to the University for Study. He said it might help somebody else. "I said no at first, but Jimmy said, 'Mom, I won't be using it after I die. Maybe it will help some other little boy spend one more day with his Mom." She went on, "My Jimmy had a heart of gold. Always thinking of someone else. Always wanting to help others if he could." Sally walked out of Children's Mercy Hospital for the last time, after spending most of the last six months there. She put the bag with Jimmy's belongings on the seat beside her in the car.

The drive home was difficult. It was even harder to enter the empty house. She carried Jimmy's belongings, and the plastic bag with the lock of his hair to her son's room.

She started placing the model cars and other personal things back in his room exactly where he had always kept them. She la id down across his bed and, hugging his pillow, cried herself to sleep.

It was around midnight when Sally awoke. Laying beside her on the bed was a folded letter. The letter said :

"Dear Mom, I know you're going to miss me; but don't think that I will ever forget you, or stop loving you, just 'cause I'm not around to say "I Love You" . I will always love you, Mom, even more with each day. Someday we will see each other again. Until then, if you want to adopt a little boy so you won't be so lonely, that's okay with me. He can have my room and old stuff to play with. But, if you decide to get a girl instead, she probably wouldn't like the same things us boys do. You'll have to buy her dolls and stuff girls like, you know. Don't be sad thinking about me. This really is a neat place. Grandma and Grandpa met me as soon as I got here and showed me around some, but it will take a long time to see everything. The angels are so cool. I love to watch them fly. And, you know what? Jesus doesn't look like any of his pictures. Yet, when I saw Him, I knew it was Him. Jesus himself took me to see GOD ! And guess what, Mom ? I got to sit on God's knee and talk to Him, like I was somebody important. That's when I told Him that I wanted to write you a letter, to tell you good bye and everything. But I already knew that wasn't allowed. Well, you know what Mom ? God handed me some paper and His own personal pen to write you this letter. I think Gabriel is the name of the angel who is going to drop this letter off to you. God said for me to give you the answer to one of the questions you asked Him 'Where was He when I needed him ?' "God said He was in the same place with me, as when His son Jesus was on the cross. He was right there, as He always is with all His children. Oh, by the way, Mom, no one else can see what I've written except you. To everyone else this is just a blank piece of paper. Isn't that cool ? I have to give God His pen back now. He needs it to write some more names in the Book of Life. Tonight I get to sit at the table with Jesus for supper. I'm sure the food will be great.

Oh, I almost forgot to tell you. I don't hurt anymore. The cancer is all gone. I'm glad because I couldn't stand that pain anymore and God couldn't stand to see me hurt so much, either. That's when He sent The Angel of Mercy to come get me. The Angel said I was a Special Delivery ! How about that ?

Signed with Love from God, Jesus & Me.

( Let's see Satan stop this one. ) Take 60 seconds and repost this, within the hour, you will have caused a multitude of believers to pray to God for each other. Then sit back and feel the Holy Spirit work in your life for doing what you know God loves "When you're down to nothing, God is up to something."


 

Sunday, October 24, 2010

kowtsz


Quotes
a lot of things could be said within a little period of time. But what matters is..
How long you’ll really men it.. J
----
  Try punching a wall. Did it fight back? YES, it did. You were also hurt.
Now hug a pillow. Did it  hug too? Yes, you felt the warmth.
This time, SHOUT, hear it? Yes ,coz you’re still listening
LESSON?
APPRECIATE
always appreciate everything and everyone around you even if sometimes they give you pain..
---
Best relationship?
Its when you both know your in love with each other yet you stay friends..
---
FACT: a recent study shows that the heart grows weaker
Every time we do something opposite of what we feel..
-readers digest..
---
Its sad when your love forgets about you.
You cant hold his hand when you want.
There’s no embrace to keep you warm
No one cares if your sleeping or if your awake
No one worries
If your not yet home
No one kisses your stresses away
But what hurts most is that in billions of people in this world
Only one can make you feel better..and that’s the same person.
---
He was never been in my vocabulary..
Until one day,,
He became the only word i know..
---
Words don’t have the power to hurt you..
Unless the person who said it
Means a lot to you..
---
If your hurting..
Too and you cant handle it anymore..
There’s only one thing you can do
LEARN HOW TO
MOVE ON..
If there is no REASON
TO HOLD ON..
---
A person’s heartbeat’s twice in a cardiac cycle
Figuratively it beats for itself and for another person
Maybe that’s why
Doctors claim 3rd beat as an abnormal..
Its called cardiac arrhythmia
See there’s no space for 3rd typar
---
In time of confusion
In times when you are running out of choices
Be reminded of one thing prayer changes everything.