harlii.ol.day

zruz.1

2010-12-24T00:21:00.000-08:00

He had me smiling from the first day..

I’ve been depress from my recent relationships..

Then suddenly he came at the wrong time..

Isn’t it ironic?!

I make a path. Im independent. I dumb my x boyfriend and ido my hair anyway i would like .

I figure out that iam attractive and i look around and how ilove to live the single life. And i told my self il never fall inlove again.But then he cames around and suddenly i understand.. and suddenly i don’t careif it’s right or wrong as long as his around i know it’s weird but we areconnected ..

Dec 19-20-21,2010

It sucks! But thank God it’s happening. i was denied by theimmigration.. but the following day they allowed me to go .. :) at the 20^thi stayed at sampaloc with my pareng zruz and his friends so damn tired weak anddepress but pareng A is at ma back saying “isa pang DENY LORD“ lol gagu ng pare ko noh an sarap ikiss ngmadaming madami.. did i enjoy his company? HMMMMMMMMMMMM.. hahaha lol makes melaugh bigtime ..di ako na boring sa company nya ewan ko lng kung naboring xaskin. :’[ HMMMMMMMMMM lol hahaha wewalked from their studio to the place where i stayed with those stuffz. NOTCOMPLAINING JUST STATETING A FACT (Fact shet! Layo.. ) and cronick was likekhate from honkong.. isn’t it nakakaasar! Na deny ka na nga then all of asudden mangaasar xa pero its all good natatawa namn ako ee mga taga KAPATAGANTALAGA. Manloloko, este mapagbiro hahaha aw i miss zruz!.. he was somabait malambing at maasikaso Jwala ko masbi.. even though puyat to death sya .. kwinentuhan ko ksi xa ngbonggang bongga.. hmmmmmmmmmmmmm. I solove him !! i get addicted to peopletoo Ji don’t care if he don’t love me or his just riddin my likes or what but for me I LOVE HIM !plain and simple.J y? HMMMMMMMM. Lol it’snot how long you stayed together that matters but how you enjoyed each other’scompany even in the shortest time you spend together..

and after that goodbye ! goin to hk :)

choose ..

2010-12-24T00:08:00.000-08:00

Choose: Drown in A or Drown in B.

A certain marj in the universe said,"One thing you must realize, these feelings will pop up again at certaintimes in your life..."

My reply to that would be my infamous "i can attest to that" line.

They do. When everything seems to be okay, when you are on steady ground...they pop up all of a sudden, shaking you once again.

The past three days counted as those "certain times when they will pop upagain". Monday and Tuesday was smooth. For a long time, I've never felt sopeaceful, so secured, so confident that good things will happen just as I wait.

Wednesday, however, was the killer. I lost my phone and there goes the trigger.Having merely sleep and limited my connection to people.One of my friend (kat)probably have heard this from me a lot of times. While there are YM, Facebook,name it, as options - they're not just as accessible.

Friday, I went home in the morning drunk decided to take a taxi. So, i hailedthe bright of session road. . The "hinge" part of the taxi door hitmy right thigh and knee, and boy did it hurt. I wanted to cry, not because Iwas in pain, but because I felt so afraid. Masakit, nakakatakot... at magisaako. But i tried to fight it over and focused on getting home safe, andthankfully, I made it. Ikaw ng lasing ksi hmpft

The moment I arrived, I told tta mercy my board mate. My news seemed more likea trivia to her. "Oh? Talaga?" was her response. And I know thatwasn't what I wanted to hear. I went to bed after and tried to sleep, butcouldn't. I did one thing I knew I had to do... CRY. I read the blog “when yourdown to nothing God is up to something. after but none of what I read sank in.I tried to talk to God but all I could mutter was, "Lord, I feel soalone." I kept on repeating Psalms 62:5, "Find rest o my soul in Godalone..." I calmed down after sometime. I tried going back to sleep againbut still couldn't.

I borrowed eric’s phone and texted my friend brandie about it. he sent me anonline message after and asked me about what happened and then I shared. If thenews sounded like a trivia to tta mercy, the news sounded like something that'shappened to another person and not me. "Ay hala!" and then he shiftsto a new topic. Again, not the response I wanted to hear.

I was seeking for comfort. Not just a sigh of relief to know that i'm okay andalive. Yes, I was hurt. But know too how horror-ed I was. That's what I wantedcomfort for more than anything else. Conversation with friend was over after afew minutes. I pretended to be okay. "khate, your own cares."

Went back to bed and had that lonely feeling again. Before I knew it, kinakainna naman ako ng thoughts at emotions ko. I felt lonely and empty. There wentthe longing again, the wishing, the going back to the past. And then i was ableto fall asleep.

Woke up .. I was drowning in my emotions already, add to that my hurting leg.The drama didn't stop as I almost scream, I felt damn hurt. For more! And thenthere were tears.

And that was it, surefire, khate’s not okay. khate's unstable once more. Itried to read blogs again but none of what I read sank in. Read a devotionalonline and boy, was it timely. The question was "have you left your heartunguarded?" I read through it but nothing was really sinking in.

Caught arv online and talked to him. Drama. Drama. Drama. None of what he wasadvising was also sinking in. I was just so full of emotions. Then he wentoffline.

blogings again
"don't let him have a foothold on you. be strong. see how the Lord helpedus through everything, and whenever manggugulo ang kaaway. remember, God is foryou, who can be against you?"
- It's true, the enemy will always try to take away from us the victory that wehave in God. And the key is not to let the enemy take it away from us.

And then I remembered what my friend told me, your emotions are not yourmaster. God is.

And as a response to loneliness, the devotional suggested to think of this:"According to Jesus, you have a Heavenly Father who loves you, youknow" Plus the devotional quoted: Here’s His promise… “Do not be anxious aboutanything, but in everything, by prayer and petition, with thanksgiving, presentyour requests to God. And the peace of God, which transcends all understanding,will guard your hearts and your minds in Christ Jesus.” (Philippians 4: 6 &7, NIV)

marj was right. When you're drowned in your emotions. Fight it! Drown yourselfin the word.

And this morning I will once again tell myself, "Find rest my soul in Godalone. My Hope comes from Him. He alone is my rock and salvation. He is myfortress. I will not be shaken."

I have to remember to hold on to THE rock so even if the ground gets a littleor not little shaky, I'll stay still.

-khate

But I Love You..

2010-12-16T22:49:00.000-08:00

TO BE OR NOT TO BE

2010-12-16T22:30:00.000-08:00

To be or not to be..

Im staring at the clock its quarter to 3 i’m tossin to bed cause i just cant sleep..cause your not here with me im reachin out for you i wish i can talk to you. Tryn to figure out whats goin on with me im used to have all the answers for everything oh boy ! tsk dunno what to do. Its so crazy a u simply amaze me. All the games i played and the 3pings im doin seems so lame to me im goin down with this new me ahggh but still i dunno if your tellin the truth or just 3pin.

Halina sa Baguio

2010-12-16T22:03:00.000-08:00

HUKBONG LYRICAL :)

HUTSELEN RECORDS

2010-12-16T21:55:00.000-08:00

Genre:: HIPHOP GENERAL
Members:: READY4WAR OF BLINDRHYME PRODUCTIONS (NICE, SNICHWON, STLOUIE)

TUBAD OF IMPROVED ICED RECORDS

JUVENILLE DELINQUENT OF MANILA BOIZE

OREO BACTAD

SANTA CLARA REDREBELZ:
SMOKER
LUCKY
MIKEL
SHORTEE 1ST
ZRUZ
Hometown:: SANTA CLARA, DELPAN, CALAMBA
Record Label:: INDIE
Current Location:: SANTA CLARA, MANILA

Detailed Info

General Manager:: READY4WAR
Booking Agent:: JUVENILLE DELINQUENT
Press Contact:: NICE OF READY4WAR
Artists We Also Like:: CIRCULO PUGANTES
Influences:: MADDPOETS, BBCLAN, CHINESE MAFIA, DENMARK
THE GAME, EMINEM, TUPAC, BTNH,
Band Interests:: RAP MUSICX, WRITING LYRICX, RAP EVENTS..
Biography:: In 2003, Oneil Fabrigar and Jomar Conste, classmates in a university in Manila, started to write songs about their classmates just to make fun of them. They have different influences that time. They never took rapping seriously.

In 2004, Jomar Conste introduced his nephew, Louie Nuqui, somewhere in Calamba, Laguna, who was chasing the car they were riding just to show Gloc9's debut album.

Although they have mixed influences in rap music, they tried to collaborate with each other and looked for a studio where they can record their songs. They had a hard time finding a suitable home studio.

In April 2005, Oneil Fabrigar attended the birthday celebration of Larry Van Lim in his place in Sampaguita-Blumentritt. There, he met some known rappers, namely DCoy of Madd Poets, Simon of BB Clan, Klutch B of Chinese Mafia, Denmark of Blind Rhyme Productions, and other affiliates. larry Van Lim and Ahvie Mascardo introduced Oneil Fabrigar to Denmark, and asked him to spit some freestyle. After spitting some rhymes, Oneil was offered by Denmark to have a track in a compilation album, and asked if Oneil already has a group, and what the name of the group is. Oneil said that his group's name is R2W (READY2WAR) and Denmark joked, "What's that? Ready to wear?" and suggested to change the name to Ready4War.

The group recorded their first track entitled "Pangarap" at 187 Mobstaz recording studio at Tondo, Manila in November 2005. In December 2006, they recorded their track entitled "Pinagmulan", a song included in the album "Circulo Pugantes Presents TODAS" in Quiazy Illeon's studio. It was released on March 24, 2007 in record bars.

In 2008, the group found a new home studio right in Oneil's hometown of Santa Clara, Dirty Room Productions. Oneil hooked up with some amateur rappers around the block to represent the hood. They recorded several mixtapes, including "Rebelznbanditz mixtape vol. 1", "Uni Album" and "Hatol". After that they parted ways with the studio due to irreconcileable differences.

In 2009, Ready 4 War decided to build their own studio to provide them and their colleagues a place to record tracks. They came up with the name Hutselen, a Dutch word meaning hustling, but pronounced as "hot-selling" to give a new meaning, a mixed definition of hustling and hot-selling.

In July 24, 2009, Hutselen Records was born. They have already released their first mixtape in the same year entitled "Santa Clara Red Rebelz Mixtape Volume 1". In this mixtape, Ready 4 War introduced their new artists in Santa Clara, the Red Rebelz. It was followed immediately by "Santa Clara Red Rebelz Mixtape Volume 2: Simula ng Pulaan" on August 30, 2010.

In 2003, Oneil Fabrigar and Jomar Conste, classmates in a university in Manila, started to write songs about their classmates just to make fun of them. They have different influences that time. They never took rapping seriously.

In 2004, Jomar Conste introduced his nephew, Louie Nuqui, somewhere in Calamba, Laguna, who was chasing the car they were riding just to show Gloc9's debut album.

Although they have mixed influences in rap music, they tried to collaborate with each other and looked... (read more)

NGAYONG WALA KANA.wmv

2010-12-16T21:42:00.000-08:00

hutselen RECORDS :)

In 2003, Oneil Fabrigar and Jomar Conste, classmates in a university in Manila, started to write songs about their classmates just to make fun of them. They have different influences that time. They never took rapping seriously. In 2004, Jomar Conste introduced his nep...hew, Louie Nuqui, somewhere in Calamba, Laguna, who was chasing the car they were riding just to show Gloc9's debut album. Although they have mixed influences in rap music, they tried to collaborate with each other and looked for a studio where they can record their songs. They had a hard time finding a suitable home studio. In April 2005, Oneil Fabrigar attended the birthday celebration of Larry Van Lim in his place in Sampaguita-Blumentritt. There, he met some known rappers, namely DCoy of Madd Poets, Simon of BB Clan, Klutch B of Chinese Mafia, Denmark of Blind Rhyme Productions, and other affiliates. larry Van Lim and Ahvie Mascardo introduced Oneil Fabrigar to Denmark, and asked him to spit some freestyle. After spitting some rhymes, Oneil was offered by Denmark to have a track in a compilation album, and asked if Oneil already has a group, and what the name of the group is. Oneil said that his group's name is R2W (READY2WAR) and Denmark joked, "What's that? Ready to wear?" and suggested to change the name to Ready4War. The group recorded their first track entitled "Pangarap" at 187 Mobstaz recording studio at Tondo, Manila in November 2005. In December 2006, they recorded their track entitled "Pinagmulan", a song included in the album "Circulo Pugantes Presents TODAS" in Quiazy Illeon's studio. It was released on March 24, 2007 in record bars. In 2008, the group found a new home studio right in Oneil's hometown of Santa Clara, Dirty Room Productions. Oneil hooked up with some amateur rappers around the block to represent the hood. They recorded several mixtapes, including "Rebelznbanditz mixtape vol. 1", "Uni Album" and "Hatol". After that they parted ways with the studio due to irreconcileable differences. In 2009, Ready 4 War decided to build their own studio to provide them and their colleagues a place to record tracks. They came up with the name Hutselen, a Dutch word meaning hustling, but pronounced as "hot-selling" to give a new meaning, a mixed definition of hustling and hot-selling. In July 24, 2009, Hutselen Records was born. They have already released their first mixtape in the same year entitled "Santa Clara Red Rebelz Mixtape Volume 1". In this mixtape, Ready 4 War introduced their new artists in Santa Clara, the Red Rebelz. It was followed immediately by "Santa Clara Red Rebelz Mixtape Volume 2: Simula ng Pulaan" on August 30, 2010.

leave the past :)

2010-12-16T21:24:00.000-08:00

I was scanning my old sim when I saw your messages way back 2008. It made me smile while reading the messages and then I paused for a bit, reminiscing. These are few of the perfect memories you left me that I will treasure forever. I’m finally letting you go even though it breaks me; I’m going to put everything away that would bring me pain. I know someday we’ll see each other again and when the time comes, you’ll see the same smile, just as how you made me smile the way I used to—just as how we shared the true meaning of life.

Ina - Suddenly [with lyrics]

2010-12-16T21:07:00.000-08:00

after ng fall :)

Officially yours- craig david :)

2010-12-16T20:28:00.001-08:00

Verse 1]
Thinkin' how the story goes
You're helpless and I'm wishin'
Put the film inside my mind
But there's a big scene that I'm missin'
As I re-read my lines
I think I said this, I should've said that
Did you edit me out of your mind
'Cos in a flash you had disappeared, gone (gone)
Before the curtain falls
And we act this out again
Maybe I should risk it all and state

[Chorus]
That I'm officially going on the record
To say I'm in love with you
I'm officially everything you hope that I would be
This time I'll tell the truth
I'm officially wrong I know
For letting you go the way I did
Unconditionally more than I ever was before
I'm officially yours
La da day, la da day
La da da da da oh

[Verse 2]
Travellin' down this road again
Gotta make a few decisions
Don't want you to feel this hurt again
That's why I'm hopin' that you'll listen
If you let me press rewind
I'll rehearse every word I should have said
'Cos girl I'm ready to make things right
Here on this stage so we can move on (on)
And before the curtain falls
And we act this out again
Missin' pieces I'll resolve so stay

[Chorus]
I'm officially going on the record
To say I'm in love with you
I'm officially everything you hope that I would be
This time I'll tell the truth
I'm officially wrong I know
For letting you go the way I did
Unconditionally more than I ever was before

[Bridge]
Things I should have said
Like I appreciate the time that I spend with you
Inspire me with the smile I put on your pretty face
My world comes alive, now I know (now I know it babe)
This time I'm not letting go
'Cos I'm officially yours (oh oh)

[Chorus]
Officially everything you hope that I would be
This time I'll tell the truth
I'm officially wrong I know
For letting you go the way I did
Unconditionally more than I ever was before

I'm officially going on the record
To say I'm in love with you
I'm officially everything you hope that I would be
This time I'll tell the truth
I'm officially wrong I know
For letting you go the way I did
Unconditionally more than I ever was before

[Outro]
Girl I'm unconditionally yours (oh yeah)
Officially yours, your man (La da day, la da day, la da day)
Girl I'm unconditionally yours (La da da da da oh)
Officially yours, I am

Girl I'm unconditionally yours (listen what I'm tryna say)
Officially yours, your man (oh oh)
Girl I'm unconditionally yours
Officially yours, I am

pare..PARE..pare

2010-12-14T23:49:00.000-08:00

Tick tock tick tock

1:10 am..

She has been twisting and turning on her bed for more thanan hour. Trying to get some sleep..

“come on you khatee sleep na ahgrr! She whispers toherself,, she tried to do the old trick count 1-1000 damn it wala kwenta . kuhang yosi sabay sounds.. her thoughts still travelling.. she had a long day, wenthome drunk again?? But still can’t find peace in her own bedroom

“you love me but you don’t know who i am. Bla bla.. “ damnthis song just what i need she ran out of things to do.. to keep her mind preoccupied. She starts asking questions to herself. Questions she herselfcouldn’t seem to answer.

Does he loves me?

Is it foreal?

Does he care?

Am i the only one?

But y are we like this?

And she couldn’t seem to reason out anymore.

She is very easy to fall inlove but once the sparks dies down, she’s the onewho call the shots.

She never cried over a guy who isn’t her boyfriend.. she wasthe dominant one,, she was in control.. until now..

She is officially inlove with her PARE.. she learned to lovehim for everything he is...

“he’s not your type not even close to one..

But she loves him for everything he’s not..

She said to herself . see its complicated long distancerelationship oh come on khate.

Becoming an official couple started to ring like a bell

God why does it have to be this way? I asked for numbers ofsigns. None of them seem to give a positive feedback.. i don’t know if that’s asign of a NO or I have been asking the wrong questions..

She lighted up another smoke..W8ng for his text..Laid down

”and i know your waiting patiently for that day when we nolonger have to lie bout us”

..and she closed her eyes

saygoodbye

2010-12-14T23:46:00.000-08:00

SAYGOODBYE – chris brown

Dang! Everytime na naririnig ko tong kantang to it breaks my heart and i dunno y? D namncguro dahil d pa ko nakapag move on kay mack ung 3 years ko b4. Tumatak lngsiguro skin to ksi firstime ako ginago ni mack eto ung naalala ko. Ansakitparin solid, naiiyak parin ako. Maganda rin balik balikan ang nakaraan right?Ginago nya ko nun nambabae sya . mhae name nung girl. Im so down saknya tipongsolid talga. Nasa net shop kmi nun naghahanap ng songs and then pinanuod komusic video netong kantang to’asar na asar ako kasi uhmm panuorin nyo nlng vdeoneto haha sbi ko kay mack nun “solidnamn dhad ang gagu ni chrisbrown” sbi nya “ano ka ba mhie ee video lng yan.Scripted “. tapos nun mga 3 days ok naman kmi as in ok na ok pero meron na unggbi na di xa nagttx un na ung start na pag loloko nya nararamdamn ko my kakaibang nangyayari sknya. Saamin , nahuli ko xa my kasmang babae si mhae ngankipaghiwalay ako pero ako parin ung bumabalik sknya hanggang sa sinabi ko naayoko na talga muka na ko gago tanga nagshot ako nun wala man lng ko masabhanng problema kc wala ko sa baguio nung time na un lam mo ba ung gsm blue? Withstraw un pare lasing na lasing ako. Ang stupid ko pa nun. Gang sa nagmove on na ko on my own MOVE ONTALAGA pero napansin ko momove on ako pabalik sknya .awwww stupid noh.Nagkabalikan kmi pero wala na ko tiwalanun. Si mack nagturo skin wag magtiwala kya blame it on mack lol

Wala naalala ko lng haha aning ! un lng walng kwenta nohahaha GOODBYE!

over

2010-12-14T01:12:00.001-08:00

OVER ..

Today i just figured that i should end this stupidity beforeit totally kills me ! I have proven time and again that relationship whosefoundation is a weak as infant and a relationship that sprung out of lies andnurtured with lies will never head a rightful path. Yet i continued playin withthe game believing we can work things out. But what could you expect from aLONG DISTANCE LOVE AFFAIR? I should not have allowed us to reach this far, ishould not have invested too MUCH, and i should not have played the game wherewe would all be losers hurting at the end. But what’s the use of my bla bla blaover things that can never be undone? So the mature thing to do now is to LETGo of it at once.. will i still have the courage to lose grip ? today, imputting a quotation to this stupid sentence a PERIOD ....THANK YOU AND GOODBYE!

just another talkin : bagay tau.. :)

2010-12-14T00:47:00.001-08:00

Just another talking: ano tayo ?TAO TAYO hindi BAGAY TAYO

he: hey khate watsup?!

K8:yea im good kw musta ka? Bkit ka napatawag

He: im fine namn wala unli e.. noh bago.

K8: nothings new, cge tols my gagawin pa ko. Tawag ka nlngmaya

(unli lng pala sig ago)

He: iniiwasan mo ata ako hehe hndi cge ingat jan noh

K8: ok ikaw din..baba mo na

He: ghe. La bang i love u jan ?

K8: ocge i love me.

Woah i didn’t expect him to call me again. I don’t know whatto say kaya parang nagging ilag ako sa knya. Oh my gosh yang kntng yankinakanta nya skin before.. walng kmi pero ok kami no commitments pero werelike hmm kAMI? Sarap pakingan noh. KAMI.. damn everyday magkausap sa phonehated sundo nya ako food3p laughing3p movie3p lahat na ng trippings ohh damn imiss him whenever he trip on people who aint cool jan xa pinakamagaling..sound3p kung makakanta kmi sabay batuhan ng mga lyrics i get jealous wheneversinasbi nya hmm tol i met a girl na ganto ganyan ako namn si ok sige pkilala moskin ee di namn nya pinapakilala alm ko ginagawa lng nya ung mga ganun nakwento para magselos ako. Alm na nya ksi kung ano kakapikon ko .. were allgood hanggang sa heasked me ano tayo? Oh well na stone at inabot nanamn ako ng kapraningan hmm TAO? lol stupidity strikes.. aasar kc un pag alam serious tapos lolokohin, pero imade him smile dat time kc binanatan ko ng BAGAY tayo haha corny corny peroewan ko were inlove lng siguro or ako lng inlove that time ok kmi tapos biglngPOOOFF!

K8: ahmm susunduin mo ba ko ?

He: aw khate i cant make it lalaro ko dota ngaun kainitan ee

K8: aw d mo ko sinama nalalaro pa namn ako haist daya

He: di namn sa lahat ng oras kelngan magkasma tau..

(ako napatigil FUCK!! Mother founder! Na stone ako sa sinabinya,, anskit kya nun noh lam mo un solidongpulido. Kaya naisip ko na wag nlngmagreply)

He: ei you mad khate?

K8: sorry l8 reply.. kakatapos ko lng maligo. Oo nga namnnakakasawa ka na ksing kasama hahaha joke lng :p

He: wohooo kya pla nagpapasundo ka at gusto mo mkilaro ngdota ok kkasawa pla e.

K8 joke lng namn tol

He: ohh tol? (yaw nya ksi na tinatawag xa ng tol e)

K8:oo tol haha (jealousy out of anger i was at my worst buti cant help it. All i want is to hurt him just like the way he hurt me with hiswords)

Ahmm di na xa nag reply

Kinagabihan ..

He: wer u at TOL lets roll dala ko tsekot ..

Di na ko nag reply nun nakikipag alak na ko that time..

“i wanna be on you .. said excuse me lil moma...... (ringtone ng fone ko xa namili nyan J)

K8: hello san ka?

He:ikaw ang nasaan ?! bat ang ingay i thot di ka labas?

K8: shot kmi ee san ka ba ?

He: sundo kita san ka now na

K8:sige meet nlng tau session mcdo

He: go kna wag mo baba fone gang sa makasky ka ng taxi

K8:maka utos ka parng batman matic?

He: dami reklamo sige na

K8: gusto mo ako si darna ?! paalam pa ko tawag ka after 5mins

He: fine

Ewan ko na kung anong dating naming noon pero gusto ko xamakasama kya binilisan ko na magpaalam sa mg friends ko

W8ng na ko sa session noon..

Tnxt ko na xa.

“Ändito na ko san kna” ..( middle of the nyt lakas ng ulan..not complaining just stating facts)

After 10 mins reply nya..

He:anjan ka pa?

K8: malamng asan kna ba uwi na ko tgal mo what took u solong ba?

He: i cant make it. Hinarang ako ng tropa alak e

(alam mo ung feeling na shit ur tryin na libangin ung selfmo tapos biglang tatawag xa ansya mo paasa lng pla..sobrang hopeless na ko nunhay taena talaga.)

K8: ok sna tnxt mo ko agad w8ng is not a good habit ghe tcjan

So naisipan ko na gumimik nlng mag isa ko sakay ng taxi“kuya albertos po” hmm naiiyak na ko na nababad3p taena talaga .nag aalak na kosa bar malolowbat pa fone ko im still w8 for his tx. Wala padin its like 3 amna nagtx xa,, ayoko pa umuwi kya nagkhaldis pa ko.

He: just got home

K8: ohh thats good.

He:asan kna ?

K8:puso mo?

He:tinnatanong kita asan kna ?

K8:khaldis alone uwi narin ko mea mea

He: go ka d2 bhay d2 kna dumeretcho..

K8:my bhay ako dun ako uuwi

He:wag mo antayin sunduin kita jan

K8:bhala ka jan

Sinundo namn nya ko he texted me “d2 na ko san kna “solumabas ako

He: oh lsing kna pumasok kna d2

K8: ayoko mya nagshoshot pa ko,

He:tang ina namn eh

K8:tang ina talaga pinagaantay mo ko ng wala damn it bhalaka jan .

So pumasok ako sa loob ng khaldis sumunod xa umupo sya satabi ko naiiyak na ko nun pero tumayo ko sbi nya ohh san ka pupunta ? sa Crbkit sama ka ? so nung nasa cr na ko din a napigilan pag iyak ko pag labas kola nna xa sa table ung bag ko asa knya na nasa sasakyan nya so pumunta na kodun hmm sbi nya hated na kita sbi ko ok . nakasleep ako sa sasakyan taposnagstop over xa sa 7/11 natulog ulit akopagising ko asa garahe na nila kmi “oh kala ko ba hahatid mo na ko bhay ko batoh ? umakyat kna sa taas pag nakasalubong mo si mama umayos ka. Park ko lngto.

Nung pagdating ko sa kwarto nya nagbhis na ko, pag akyat nyamy dala xang 3 beer at coffee sbi ko sknya “ano yan ipapainom mo skin? Sumagotxa malamng mangunguya mo ba to? (gagu ng mahal ko no) inabot nya skin ung kapesby sbi kung nagugutom ka kumuha ka sa baba ano ka prensesa?! (parang bhay konamn un na touch ako ksi parang part na ko ng family) sumagot ako di ikaw nlnghaha pinapanuod ko xang nagshoshot hbng nagkakape ako. Nagusap kmi ngmasinsinan..

Sbi nya .sorry khate sby iyak that time napatawad ko na xa.. pero di ako nagslita sbi ko pla ohh para kng tanga bkit ka umiiyak ? sbi nyatang ina mo mahal na ksi kita kaso tang ina di ko lam kung ano tayo. Sbay sbiko tang ina ang tanda na natin di pa natin lam kung ano edi TAO! Dun na xa natawa J ok na kmi

.......oh no!

2010-11-21T08:37:00.000-08:00

Now when I come to ya ,
ya yellin, tellin me ya gone
/ But I guess your leavin again/
We been here many times before
, come on its so old/
I think its best I let'cha go roll
Need ta stress ya no more Oh no,
I think it would be better if ya leave me now
Stead of repeatin the same old episode
The one ya think I'm cheatin me
Yes I can see that I'm the reason ya greavin
Blowin on this potent weed is really got me thinkin

Maybe its me thats makin you hate me
Maybe its me thats drivin you crazy
Maybe its me n I cant be mad if you replace me
Maybe its me thats just not ready for relationships

At home n now I'm all alone/ Why do I keep hearin this same sad songs/
Remindin me of things I lost/ I finally see I had it all..

kEANE (TEACH ME HOW TO DOUGIE)

2010-11-21T05:29:00.000-08:00

damnn dats hot :)

xa na lahat hahaha

crush.crush :) facebook :) hot hot hot!

2010-11-19T02:03:00.000-08:00

everytime i see them i smile.... :)

(haha parang tanga lng ee noh)

1st up...

xa parin :)

ivan padilla!:)

tribute to ivan hu went down

FIGHTiNG!

2nd

keane peredo

wala lng

ang hot nya jan..

sooowwwooop ..
pogi pla ee...
(actualy d ko namn to kilala e ang ganda pa ng chicc nya bsta panalo xa :)

nakakaturn on pa mga pose nya hahaha palong palo :)

eto pa

3rd
WINCEE FLORES..
(kainuman ko hahahah)
parehas kmi ng school..
dati lagi kmi nag aalak nyan tapos naging bc bc
Baguio's pride editor?

eto pa

4th
MIKKO NaVaRRo

kenneth once lng kmi nag mit nyan taga tarlac kc xa..
nung nagstop ovr ung bus
sa siesta un nakipag mit ako lol

5th
JHAPOi GONZAGA
kapatid ni jha..
yee young and sweet i love it..

galing galing pa mag rap :)

yan lng muna sa susunod ulit :)..

-harlii ol dae -

in pain

2010-11-18T03:51:00.000-08:00

@4 years old

She sees her mama waiting for her outside school. She runs towards her and falls flat on face. She looks up and there is the hand of her mother helping her with the pain.

@10 years old

She comes back home crying for a loss of friend. A friend who betrayed her for another. There is the hand of a grand mothermother trying to wipe her tears.(thanx lola aning :) love u and i miss u ..

@15 years old

She is in her teen age and there is a guy harassing her. There is a brother to protect her and she feels safe.kua niksz thanzx

@17 years old

She is in love. She has abondoned every one for this one man. o by the way the name is mack lol

@19 years old

She is going through an emotional crisis unable to understand her feelings. There is a sister who helps her understand those feelings.

@21 years old

She is in pain. Yet another pain and nobody to understand her or help her. The pain of losing one and all for none. No love alone and steady. She looks up for one hand and there is none.

And sees her own shadow today.

waaaaayyyy bacccccckkkkk

2010-11-15T02:17:00.001-08:00

my heart is broken into pieces, it hurts like hell if the one you love doesn't trust you in what you are doing...i can still feel the pain deep inside me, it is so unfair...all i want is peace that I'm looking for in this relationship...i felt like i am stupid to give out everything for love and sacrifice just for a relationship that will end in just a flick of a finger...i know that we built this relationship with love, understanding and i believe trust but everything is gone for no reason at all...i don't think that he really loves me because he don't trust me anymore and i know myself...i cant do that to him, i cant be with another guy while i am committed to him because i have a promise to his mom that i will take care of him for the rest of my life and i love him very much but i don't think he knows that...i did everything i can to make this relationship last and stronger and to prove to him that this love and relationship is worth fighting for but i cant feel that he's making an effort to do the same thing for me...

i know its not too late for reconciliation but its not right to give up four years and one month for just a small mistake...i admit somehow its my fault but breaking up is not the only solution! now i know that if you love someone set him/her free but i believe that if you love someone you have to fight for the love and the relationship you build together...if you really love someone learn to sacrifice and that is what i am doing now...i just cant believe that he can easily give up everything that we fight for...it is so unbelievable that simple issue is a very big deal for him, i cant take this feeling anymore and i really don't know what to do!!! but i have one question in my mind....WHY??? every time we have a fight he keeps on insisting a break up, i just cant understand why is he doing this to me? if our fight is his fault, i can forgive him if we talk about the issue but if i have a fault or even a small mistake, he gets mad and keeps on insisting a break up...i know there's a reason for everything and i believe that he has a reason behind it... if he is already fed up with me, all he need to do is tell me why??? have i done something wrong?

i really don't know his reason behind the break up and whats going on in his mind!!! there is no third party involve in my part but he kept on thinking that there's another guy, i cant take this anymore...i've always proved to him that he is the only one i love and i don't know what to do to keep him since he thinks that way...he's demanding for space and i think I'm ready to give it to him i just cant take the pain that I'm feeling right now, i really don't know what to do....if you demand trust, so do i!!!i have the right to know what is going on to make this relationship alive, i respect his decision if thats what he wants but i demand an explanation...i don't want to think that he is the one who's doing something fishy behind my back because i do trust him and i love him...all i want is the reason behind his decision!!!

i know it is not the end of my life or the end of the world for me, if we are not meant for each other why insisting myself to him...i will try to handle this pain since i love him very much and i know that someday this broken heart will heal and time will tell if we can be together again!!!i will try to ignore my feelings and i hope i can move on already but the pain is still there...right now no one can ever replace him in my heart, i gave him another chance before and just in case he gave me another chance that will be the last time...this will also be the last time that i will cry and i promise to myself:"i don't want to be hurt like hell because i know there's happiness in heaven and it is waiting for me"...

if you read this, i hope there's still a chance for us to be together...don't worry i am not that desperate to commit a sin like suicide for just a love that i cannot revive but one thing's for sure, i will never love a man like i loved him and i know that i will survive this pain that i'm feeling right now!!! one day i know everything is gonna be alright but i hope if that day comes, the wound in my heart is already healed and i can find peace and true love....ciao!

empty chair. :(

2010-11-15T02:04:00.001-08:00

A man's daughter had asked the local minister to come and pray with her father. When the minister arrived, he found the man lying in bed with his head propped up on two pillows.

An empty chair sat beside his bed. The minister assumed that the old fellow had been informed of his visit. "I guess you were expecting me” he said. “No, who are you?" said the father. The minister told him his name and then remarked, "I saw the empty chair and I figured you knew I was going to show up, "Oh yeah, the chair," said then bedridden man. "Would you mind closing the door?" Puzzled, the minister shut the door. "I have never told anyone this, not even my daughter," said the man. "But all of my life I have never known how to pray. At church I used to hear the pastor talk about prayer, but it went right over my head." “I abandoned any attempt at prayer," the old man continued, "until one day four years ago;my best friend said to me: “Johnny, prayer is just a simple matter of having a conversation with Jesus. Here is what I suggest. Sit down in a chair; place an empty chair in front of you, and in faith see Jesus on the chair. It's not spooky because He promised, 'I will be with you always.' "Then just speak to him in the same way you're doing with me right now." "So, I tried it and I've liked it so much that I do it a couple of hours every day. I'm careful though if my daughter saw me talking to an empty chair, she'd either have a nervous breakdown or send me off to the funny farm." The minister was deeply moved by the story and encouraged the old man to continue on thejourney. Then he prayed with him, anointed him with oil, and returned to the church. Two nights later the daughter called to tell the minister that her daddy had died that afternoon. Did he die in peace?" he asked. Yes, when I left the house about two o'clock, he called me over to his bedside, told me he loved me and kissed me on the cheek. When I got back from the store an hour later, I found him dead. But there was something strange about his death. Apparently, just before Daddy died, he leaned over and rested his head on the chair beside the bed. What do you make of that?" The minister wiped a tear from his eye and said, "I wish we could all go like that." Prayer is one of the best free gifts we receive. If God brings you to it, He will bring you through it.

hurts and benefits.

2010-11-15T02:03:00.000-08:00

A story tells that two friends were walking through the desert. During some point of the journey they had an argument, and one friend slapped the other one in the face. The one who got slapped was hurt, but without saying anything, wrote in the sand: "TODAY MY BEST FRIEND SLAPPED ME IN THE FACE."

They kept on walking until they found an oasis, where they decided to take a bath. The one, who had been slapped, got stuck in the mire and started drowning, but the friend saved him. After the friend recovered from the near drowning, he wrote on a stone: "TODAY MY BEST FRIEND SAVED MY LIFE."

The friend who had slapped and saved his best friend asked him, "After I hurt you, you wrote in the sand and now, you write on a stone, why?"

The other friend replied: "When someone hurts us, we should write it down in sand where winds of forgiveness can erase it away. But, when someone does something good for us, we must engrave it in stone where no wind can ever erase

LEARN TO WRITE YOUR HURTS IN THE SAND,

AND

TO CARVE YOUR BENEFITS IN STONE.

so sweet ..boss balita ??

2010-11-09T10:36:00.000-08:00

" i dont know what u'v got girl..or just what keeps u on my mind..
-chrizo seneres..

its so sweet diba.. i dont even know kung sino yang si chrizo .. nkita ko lng status nya sa fb .. an swerte namn ng chic na pinagsbhan nya nyan :))

anyway actually la nanamn ako magawa.. :) same shit petics petics lng ..
ikaw ng badtrip ee noh .. hahaha supa dupa bad3p ko knina
dahil sa isang guy na ewan ko kung ano ba talaga ko sknya.
taena nmn kc kung makapag bitaw xa ng mga salita skin
talgang mapapafall ka.. mapagpangap si gago..

nakakapikon pero ok lng namis ko lng siguro un mga tipong ganun
tagal na ko single.. single??
wartever.. !! actually this past few months my nagiging karir namn ako
pero natatakot na ko makipag commit .. i trust no G ! lol

ewan ko ba bkit kc gangster binabagsakan ko ..
ee mga players yan haist..

kgabi my namit ako si roy**
shot shot..

knina nagtx xa ..

roy**: hi
Khate:hu dA
Roy**:roY**
khate ai oh
Roy**:3p kita
KhAte: ok
roy**: hmm my bf ka ?
khate: walng reply

di ko na xa nereplyan ewan ko la ko panahon sa mga ganyan letche ..

kht namn alak alak ako or party party..

im after all no one's BITCh!!

hmm.. ewan ko ba hahahaha wala lng nakakainis .la lng magawa kea blog blog

same shit

2010-10-30T10:41:00.000-07:00

October 28, 2010..

I refuse to believe that you don’t care .. L

Its already 2:00 am and still im kickin .. damn we cantsleep, talkin about boys boys boys..

Tine: te taena ng mga lalaking yan manloloko ee noh sarapbawian.. haist

Khate: same old shit ka nmn kasi tapos na ngabinabalik-balikan mo pa.. kung hindi nag work out noon sa tingin mo mag woworkout ulit ngaun?

Tine: ngeks kowts eto.

Khate: yan boka k okay jha noon ee 3p nya ksi balikan un exnya.. hahaha un ex nya na nagpahamak sa knya hahaha lol pag ako lng chiknunapota baka ako pa nagtangol sknya..

Tine:ganyan ginwa k okay arkiie non e

---

Damn nakakalungkot isipin na sa panahon ngaun bakit wala ngmatinong lalaki L

Tine:bakit pa kc nauso mga playa playa

Khate: oo nga ee solid na noh kung noon tamang maglolokopatalikod ee ngaun taena garapalan na haist

Nakakainis isipin..

Walana ung tipong mag seseryoso meron man kaso di mo namngusto. Lol it reminds me of 6 fingers!

Knock on wood ..

When a guy is away from his girl all he wantedis her trust..

But on the girls partall she want is his FAITHFULLNESS

Kaso wala ng ganean ngaun trust no man

Wala nang kwenta mga pinagsasabi ko ee noh bad3p ang boringkasi .. same shit different day. L

playas chnge but the game remains dsame

2010-10-29T12:02:00.000-07:00

Few months after a heart breaking experience, after allthose weeks of crying. I realize i was walking on a different road. It surelyrocky but i can say that as i walk, i saw pieces of my self broken. So inpicked it up. One by one and gently put the pieces back together and now i cansay i had moved on and im taking all steps forward one way of saying there’s noturning back..

When you're down to nothing, God is up to something.

2010-10-25T00:12:00.000-07:00

I just want to share with you guys, i just got this from a friend through email...

This is beautiful! Try not to cry.

She jumped up as soon as she saw the surgeon come out of the operating room. She said: "How is my little boy ? Is he going to be all right ? When can I see him ?"

The surgeon said, "I'm sorry. We did all we could, but your boy didn't make it."

Sally said, "Why do little children get cancer ? Doesn't God care any more ? Where were you, God, when my son needed you ?"

The surgeon asked, "Would you like some time alone with your son ? One of the nurses will be out in a few minutes, before he's transported to the university."

Sally asked the nurse to stay with her while she said good bye to son. She ran her fingers lovingly through his thick red curly hair. "Would you like a lock of his hair ?" the nurse asked.

Sally nodded yes. The nurse cut a lock of the boy's hair, put it in a plastic bag and handed it to Sally.

The mother said, "It was Jimmy's idea to donate his body to the University for Study. He said it might help somebody else. "I said no at first, but Jimmy said, 'Mom, I won't be using it after I die. Maybe it will help some other little boy spend one more day with his Mom." She went on, "My Jimmy had a heart of gold. Always thinking of someone else. Always wanting to help others if he could." Sally walked out of Children's Mercy Hospital for the last time, after spending most of the last six months there. She put the bag with Jimmy's belongings on the seat beside her in the car.

The drive home was difficult. It was even harder to enter the empty house. She carried Jimmy's belongings, and the plastic bag with the lock of his hair to her son's room.

She started placing the model cars and other personal things back in his room exactly where he had always kept them. She la id down across his bed and, hugging his pillow, cried herself to sleep.

It was around midnight when Sally awoke. Laying beside her on the bed was a folded letter. The letter said :

"Dear Mom, I know you're going to miss me; but don't think that I will ever forget you, or stop loving you, just 'cause I'm not around to say "I Love You" . I will always love you, Mom, even more with each day. Someday we will see each other again. Until then, if you want to adopt a little boy so you won't be so lonely, that's okay with me. He can have my room and old stuff to play with. But, if you decide to get a girl instead, she probably wouldn't like the same things us boys do. You'll have to buy her dolls and stuff girls like, you know. Don't be sad thinking about me. This really is a neat place. Grandma and Grandpa met me as soon as I got here and showed me around some, but it will take a long time to see everything. The angels are so cool. I love to watch them fly. And, you know what? Jesus doesn't look like any of his pictures. Yet, when I saw Him, I knew it was Him. Jesus himself took me to see GOD ! And guess what, Mom ? I got to sit on God's knee and talk to Him, like I was somebody important. That's when I told Him that I wanted to write you a letter, to tell you good bye and everything. But I already knew that wasn't allowed. Well, you know what Mom ? God handed me some paper and His own personal pen to write you this letter. I think Gabriel is the name of the angel who is going to drop this letter off to you. God said for me to give you the answer to one of the questions you asked Him 'Where was He when I needed him ?' "God said He was in the same place with me, as when His son Jesus was on the cross. He was right there, as He always is with all His children. Oh, by the way, Mom, no one else can see what I've written except you. To everyone else this is just a blank piece of paper. Isn't that cool ? I have to give God His pen back now. He needs it to write some more names in the Book of Life. Tonight I get to sit at the table with Jesus for supper. I'm sure the food will be great.

Oh, I almost forgot to tell you. I don't hurt anymore. The cancer is all gone. I'm glad because I couldn't stand that pain anymore and God couldn't stand to see me hurt so much, either. That's when He sent The Angel of Mercy to come get me. The Angel said I was a Special Delivery ! How about that ?

Signed with Love from God, Jesus & Me.

( Let's see Satan stop this one. ) Take 60 seconds and repost this, within the hour, you will have caused a multitude of believers to pray to God for each other. Then sit back and feel the Holy Spirit work in your life for doing what you know God loves "When you're down to nothing, God is up to something."

kowtsz

2010-10-24T07:30:00.002-07:00

Quotes

a lot of things could besaid within a little period of time. But what matters is..

How long you’ll really menit.. J

----

Try punching a wall. Did it fight back? YES,it did. You were also hurt.

Now hug a pillow. Didit hug too? Yes, you felt the warmth.

This time, SHOUT, hear it?Yes ,coz you’re still listening

LESSON?

APPRECIATE

always appreciate everythingand everyone around you even if sometimes they give you pain..

---

Best relationship?

Its when you both know yourin love with each other yet you stay friends..

---

FACT: a recent study showsthat the heart grows weaker

Every time we do somethingopposite of what we feel..

-readers digest..

---

Its sad when your loveforgets about you.

You cant hold his hand whenyou want.

There’s no embrace to keepyou warm

No one cares if yoursleeping or if your awake

No one worries

If your not yet home

No one kisses your stressesaway

But what hurts most is thatin billions of people in this world

Only one can make you feelbetter..and that’s the same person.

---

He was never been in myvocabulary..

Until one day,,

He became the only word iknow..

---

Words don’t have the powerto hurt you..

Unless the person who saidit

Means a lot to you..

---

If your hurting..

Too and you cant handle itanymore..

There’s only one thing youcan do

LEARN HOW TO

MOVE ON..

If there is no REASON

TO HOLD ON..

---

A person’s heartbeat’s twicein a cardiac cycle

Figuratively it beats foritself and for another person

Maybe that’s why

Doctors claim 3^rdbeat as an abnormal..

Its called cardiacarrhythmia

See there’s no space for 3^rdtypar

---

In time of confusion

In times when you arerunning out of choices

Be reminded of one thingprayer changes everything.

..pafeeling

2010-10-24T07:30:00.000-07:00

she dont know what to do nor to think.

he called fo the second time and this time i answered the phone.

"hey, its me.. whats up?

"aigh.. im good bout you ? i replied . there was a lil silent cameout..

"hey you wanna hang out ? i just got home and if you wanna hang out..

i wanna say yes but i need to say NO so, i said.. "im sorry i cant ..i just got home and im tired..

so he said.. "ok hmm how bout tom??

(dunno what to say..) "ok i''let you know..

''ok just holla me up .. orait"

''ok bye tc "

nakakafar out lam nyo ba un.. ung tipong nag tatake advantage sa feelingsmo porket lam niya na foreal nararamdamn mo and there he goes taking all thechances ma hook up ka lng ? damn it! tapos mag dddcate pa ng kanta .. ''eachtime'' it goes like

..i guess i didnt know each time you go away i cry..

MOTHER FOUNDER! parang nakakagago lng ee noh..

tapos after that ddskartehan pa nya ung close friend ko..

pasampal sa muka.. hmmpft kala mo napakapogi ni gagu..

..smile

2010-10-24T07:27:00.001-07:00

Andrew

I see himin a way that nobody can. its funny but the little things that hedoes makes me love him even more. like i know he would disagree with this, buthe sometimes snores while sleeping,haha admit that dre.. dont worry you'restill awesome! and i wont trade that for any noises in this world:) and ohh hemakes certain movements too (like he would flip his foot/arms all of asuddeen,as if he was falling in his dreams..) and he makes weird noises toopooot hahaha it should be a turn off. but i see it something that is apart ofhim so i just find it cute.

looking so inocent and good. my man DRE .. how lovely is that to watchsomeone you love. so perfect and so calm.im just too crazy about him <3 buti know its over its breaking my heart..

and also i can literally tell just by his eyes, his smiles, hismovements,what he really feels

he has different types of smile.. i can tell by his one certain smile whenhe would saw some beautiful chic passing infront of us ugh! or when he'shidding something that he wouldnt wanna tell. the other is when he saw someonehe knows but would act like as if he doesnt know them lol but would obviouslysmile and look at them from afar. ofcourse some of them are giiiirlllssss i cantell. but its ok . Whatever!the other smile is when he's being sarcastic andmaking fun of me. it annoys me but i always end up just laughing about itthough, coz i know no matter what he tells i know HE LOVES ME :) he might nottell it to my face but i know he finds me attractive :) lol he wouldnt have goneout with me in the first place if he doesnt find me attractive right ? :)lafing ma ass off:)

and last, my favorite part is one smile for me. that one perfect smile thatcan actually my heartbeat so fast.and so happy i love how it brightens up hiseyes when i see him smiling sweetly at me :)

ohh gosh i miss him !

i wish heaven has a phone or a video so that i can hear his voice and seehis smile

..feelingsz??

2010-10-24T07:24:00.000-07:00

..khate..

ive been trying to get myself together these days,

ive been treating my heart so careful.

i noticed i always chase the wrong person..

right just about now, i dont want anyone to understand.

its just that, no one have my ryhme..

im confused right now, to be honest .....

deeeep inside i have this feeling that only me knows about what it is.

i dont feel like loving someone right now..

infact i dont wanna be anyone's anything right now..

---harley..

Come Back - Ahmir

2010-10-12T01:03:00.000-07:00

she rides

2010-10-07T02:15:00.001-07:00

http://www.facebook.com/video/video.php?v=156769711012614

Thnx sa sis ko :)

shawtii wanna thug ..

2010-10-06T00:18:00.000-07:00

diva is a female version of a hustlah :)

foolin around

2010-09-30T08:24:00.000-07:00

I know i vowed to never do this again but

I guess this seems to be the only thing im good at

Got something that u need to kno

Be the realest ish that I never wrote

Cant hold it gotta let it go

Know that I mean every note

Yea yea

Listen babe

Let me start by saying that

The way i feel for u is never once changed

And the games ive played, mistakes i made

Leave me sorrier than youll ever u never kno

We got a problem babe i cant lie

Cuz lately i realize that i

Never knew that we was on the same playing field

Knew that there was wrong but we let it be

And i know u never knew when u say i do

That u would have to face all the pain u feel

And its killin me boy that u have to live with this

Live with the lies i tell

Live with the pain u feel

Knowing the girl u love is fooling around

Oh baby said its killin me boy

Said i just dont understand

Why u wanna be with this kind of girl damn

Why would u love a fool with all the things i do

I know its hard for you

Hard for you to live with this

Trade memories from moments

Treat love to be lonely

Guess that's just the girl in me

Blame it on

When the nights time feel like the right time

And the spotlight feel like the right light

But its really just my fears

& still dont dry your tears when i

Say he aint you when i really love u more

When u say if its true

Why u do it for and i

I really dont

have no excuse

I break ur heart make u cry

I just wanna say goodbye

..i miss us ..

2010-09-30T08:19:00.000-07:00

blast from the past :)I was scanning my friendster when I saw your messages/comments way back 2006 2007 2008 2009 .How I wish you saw that smile while I was reading it and suddenly I remember almost everything that we had from the start. :)

Thought I heard your voice yesterday

Then I turned around to say that I loved you

then I realized

that it was just my mind

playing tricks on me....

It seems colder lately at night

and I try to sleep with the lights on

Everytime the phone rings

I pray to God it's you

I just can't believe

That we're through...

.I miss you (I miss you...)

Theres no other way to say it

And I, I can't deny it.

I miss you (I miss you...)

It's so easy to see

I miss you and me........

Is it done and over this time?
Can we ever change our minds?
But it's our first love...
all the feelings that we used to share...
I refuse to believe that you don't care

dhadhie 'mhamhie
august 07 2006-
sept 2009..
no more us ..

missin yah :)

One More Chance Movie Trailer 2007

2010-09-30T06:37:00.000-07:00

popoi: mahal na mahal kita ...at ang sakit sakit na ..

"damn ...

bash:ako nlng .. ako nlng ulit ..

popoi; she had me at my worst and u had me at ma best ...

DAmn hahahhaha la lng .. naalala ko lng let to

fact :)

2010-09-29T05:17:00.000-07:00

One of the reason why people get so sentimental. it's because, memories are the the only thing that don't change. When everything else does. There are things in life that can't hold on forever, no matter how much you fight for it. Some isn't always good, it becomes playful. When you met someone you learned to love, you thought it was destiny who made your paths cross, but what if making your paths cross is just part of the game that the playful destiny create? making you realize in the end that the person you thought that was destined for you wasn't really meant to stay, but only destined to make you feel love and leave you when you've already fallen. It's not easy to sate a reason when you decide to leave your love. Some might think its it's just an excuse, some might not actually believe, some will blame you, some might even get mad at you, that they don't see is the fact that it hurts you even more to hurt someone who doesn't deserve to be hurt, especially when you can't actually state the reason why you have to leave. You can never own something that was never yours. So let's stop gripping on something we expect to last forever. FOREVER is aLIE. everything is transitory. So while you have something on your hand, put in mind that it's just borrowed. So it won't take you eternity just to let it go. When your feelings get strong for someone, it's always wise to stop for a while and give your heart A TIME TO BREATH, a time to use your mind to weigh the situation based on reason not on emotion. Because the saddest thing can happen is when one fall in love and the other wants nothing. Love can sometimes be magic. But magic can sometimes be an illusion. There are times when i wish that i was limited to certain emotions, so that i'll never have to experience pain, never feel betrayed or disappointed, and never get my fragile heart broken. But the same thing means that i'll never know how it feels to love and be loved in return. The thought if it kind of scares me. To have a heart that's whole but numb, or heart that's broken but real. Someday we'll all be looking back to those days we learned to lose, get hurt, cry, and fight. Maybe when that time comes, we'll be laughing at our old dumb selves, realizing hot stupid we were to stand up for things we knew weren't really meant for us. But i guess learning takes time, and mistakes makes one's journey fun. Life is what we make it. Love makes the world go round. So let's live, love, and take whatever pain it brings. Though it;s hard to wait around for something that i know will never return. It's harder to stop when i know it's everything iv'e always wanted. But you know what? i'm glad............

=) with all this crazy things that happened? you've became strong and learned how to fight, and i guess that's my only contribution. thank you, take care, i'm just here.,. =) ALWAYS

HATE SEEiNG OLD PEOPLE EATiNG ALONE

2010-09-24T22:22:00.000-07:00

It’s depressing! They make me want to sit with them and talk. It just really makes me think about life. Either they had someone and lost them or they just never did. Stories could be amazing even though they maybe be heartbreaking. It’s amazing to know how they feel about their daily life and feelings. I’m sure they think about it everyday. I know I would. Honestly, I’m scared to death that I could be one them and be lonely. I’d love to share most of my life with a significant other. I’d love a reason to live everyday. I’m sure I’m not the only one who’s scared though.

This is heart-breaking. ;(

QUESTIONS THAT KEPT ON RUNNING INSIDE MY HEAD.

2010-09-20T05:59:00.001-07:00

What is something that is “going right” in your life? Nothing is going perfectly right. :/
Do you often have a lot on your mind? Always.
Do you ever talk to yourself?Not like, out loud lol.
Does it bother you when people are not on time?Yes.
Did you see your bestfriend today?I don’t even know who that is anymore, to be honest.
Have you ever gotten flowers from a significant other?Oh, wow. Not a significant other, but from people I was sort of with.
Have you ever been cheated on?I guess, if you want to consider him a real boyfriend lol.
What would happen if you found out you were being cheated on right now?No one can cheat on me since no one is going out with me lol.
Are you an outgoing person, or are you more reserved?I seem outgoing, but I’m actually really reserved.
What is your favorite sexual act?Erm, I’m not at all a sexual person, but okay.
Have you ever been in a relationship that was going great, and then suddenly something weird happened and you just KNEW it was going to be over soon?Lol lol lol.
Who was the last person who unexpectedly texted you?the black girl
Best thing that happened to you this summer?All of the realizations I came to were pretty good.
Last concert you attended? none
Who is the biggest cunt you know?Lmfao, myself. Nah.
Do you have off campus lunch?Not really.
When you ask for someone’s number and they don’t ask for yours back, do you feel shitty?I never ask people for their numbers.
Do you think the person that you last liked wants to be with you?Erm, no. I don’t think he wants to be with anyone.
Is there anyone that you wish was out of your life?Everyone who’s really IN my life, I want there. I don’t keep people I don’t want around around.
Is there anyone that you wish was IN your life who used to be?Yes.
Who was the last person to leave you a voicemail?Idk, probably my Mom. She’s a biiiig fan of voicemails.
How do you feel right now?Like I should go to bed.
How many people do you truly trust (not family)?Probably Jonathan, Brian, and Jordan, even when I don’t speak to them often at all. But it’s safe to say that I don’t really trust anyone.
Do you find it in your heart to forgive?Sure?
What is your favorite kind of weather?Rainy. Or like post-rain. Sweater/cardigan weather. Autumn.
Does the last person you held hands with mean anything to you?Just a friend.
When was the last time something bothered you?Right now.
Who in your life has hurt you the most?Outside of my family, honestly, probably Justin Lugo. Only comparatively, though. And only because I’ve done a pretty good job of not letting much affect me.
Are you drifting away from someone you were close with?I’ve already drifted from everyone who was close to me.
Anything you’re giving up on?Gave up on everything I needed to already.
When was the last time you cried?I don’t even remember.
Have you ever punched a guy?Not like seriously.
Do you need to say anything to someone?Probably, but I won’t.
When was the last time you were extremely disappointed?Every day I go to school lol.
Have you ever broken someone’s heart?So they say.
How’s your life lately?Nothing special.
Can you keep a secret?No. If you can’t keep your own secrets, what makes you think someone else can?
Are you open with your feelings to people?No.
Last place you hugged someone?The bus.
What were you like a year ago?Omg, so happy. So worried, but so happy.
Do you wish someone would call you right now?Sure.
Who was the last person you stayed up with til 1am with on the phone?Jordan.
Are you currently frustrated with a boy/girl?Somewhat.
Is there any emotion you’re trying to avoid right now?All of them? Lmfao. Mostly, affection or attraction, if those count.
Are you sad?No.
If your girlfriend/boyfriend broke up with you tonight, what would you do?Don’t have one.
How’s your heart lately?I hate this stupid question.
Last person you text messaged?Dennis.
What is your relationship status?Super super single.
Ever been kissed in the rain?Yes.
Do you judge people you don’t know?No, not really. I actually don’t usually believe what anyone tells me about anyone, unless the person doing the telling is a really close and trusted friend of mine. Still, I try not to judge people by the experiences that others have had with them.
Do you hate the last person you kissed?No, he’s got some major issues to work out though lol.

but i lOve yOu .. HAMMPFT

2010-09-16T06:10:00.000-07:00

he so swit ..

but i love u .. :(

haist

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2010-09-12T07:31:00.000-07:00

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..

2010-09-12T06:28:00.001-07:00

Letting go is not the hardest thing.. It’s more of moving on and finding yourself. Letting go is just the big step to take.. The bigger picture? Is taking the little steps in putting yourself back together.. Accepting other people’s love and giving it back.. Learning to gain back all the love and live again for yourself..

It’s not easy. I know. It never was and never will be.. But close doors won’t open by itself. It will always need a permission, an action, an outside force to act upon it. To open it. Just like your heart. Leaving it closed won’t mend it. You have to heal, open and let go to make it work again..

Realizations like this doesn’t require definite time to be thought of. It doesn’t need a perfect love to see what was lost. You don’t need a year, month or even a second to think about it. What you need is a heart and the will to stand up again from fallen relationships..

My present relationship isn’t perfect.. We have problems, fights and misunderstandings.. This may or may not be the forever that we both want.. But this is my now.. Our now.. And for this, I have to keep my heart intact and and beating.. Because now, I am inlove..

a tribute to the ones who went down fighting ..

2010-09-10T02:06:00.000-07:00

http://www.abs-cbnnews.com/nation/metro-...
Personal information:
(OFFICIAL FAN PAGE OF IVAN PADILLA)
The Young, Restless and Dangerous. Justice for Young Ivan
WHAT HAPPENED TO IVAN?
(as told to Gang Badoy by Ivan Padilla’s sisters, girlfriend, and mother)
FILED UNDER THE RETHINK MEDIA GROUP: an alternative media source.
(3 August 2010, Manila)

Without meaning nor wanting to, I am now tasked to write this piece.

Through the prodding of my niece who happens to be the friend of B, I found myself in the Correctional Institution for Women this afternoon listening to Malou Padilla and her daughters.

I just went to see ‘B’ and to make sure that she was okay at this time of grief. Naturally, the conversation revolved around their Kuya’s death.

While I write this with no set opinion on anything yet, I will try my best to recall everything we talked about this afternoon. If only to help the girls share what they know so far.

B is the younger sister of recently slain alleged carnap ring leader Ivan Padilla, 23. B told me about some factual errors the networks have been reporting about their family. In the interest of clarity, I shall enumerate the exchange between myself, ‘B,’ her older sister ‘M,’ Ivan’s life partner ‘A’and their mother Malou.

1. ‘M’ first tweeted that the networks have been reporting erroneous facts. She made it clear that her father is NOT in jail. Her mother is in the Correctional Institution for Women on a drug-related charge from over a decade ago. She has since turned to God and is now under Minimum watch. I saw her this afternoon and she did surprise me with her calmness peppered with her constant references to Psalm 23 whenever the subject turns to my awe of how she’s so composed during such a difficult time.

2. ‘B’ shared with me how while she was sitting in the Funeraria Filipinas receiving area – the news team of RPN 9 and TV5 were all asking the (what seems to be) the manager of the funeral parlor if they could shoot/film Ivan’s body inside the morgue. The manager would repeatedly say that under strict requests from the Padilla family members, no media person was to be allowed inside the morgue. ‘B’ even heard one someone “in white” from RPN 9 say, “Nasa kulungan naman parehong magulang niyan, wala namang magtatanong o magagalit.” (Both his parents are in jail anyway, so no one will ask or be offended.) They didn’t know who she was because she was hiding behind her companion and did not identify herself for fear of being mobbed with questions she wasn’t ready for.

3. ‘B’ shared how painful it is to read comments on news links online that spewed attacks against her brother –especially the ones that insinuate that ‘he deserved it.’ A trial is what everyone deserves, no matter what. Not death this way, she insinuates.

4. Speaking of death. Ivan’s life partner ‘A’ shared that she got to embrace him before they wheeled him in for the autopsy. She said she had a conversation with an Ospital ng Makati doctor (I’m assuming the attending physician at the time Ivan got there. A vaguely recalled that it could possibly be a certain Dr. Espina.) She found out that Ivan arrived Ospital ng Makati at 550am. Based on the stories of Ivan’s friend (either Mark or someone whose name starts with a J) said that they were in the vicinity of A.Venue along Makati Ave around 330am – and heard the shots from the supposed encounter around 420-430am. A handcuffed Ivan was even on video muttering something at an ABS CBN microphone while sitting or being assisted into the arresting officers’ vehicle. One question that came up for A, B, M and Malou is why did it take so long to get Ivan to Ospital ng Makati along Malugay, Bel Air Makati which is (at most) fifteen minutes away – less so since there was no traffic at that early hour.

5. The Inquirer today (Tues Aug 3 2010) reported that there were two police reports prepared. One at 6am (quote Senior Supt. Leo Francisco, head of the NCR Police Office or NCRPO -Intelligence Operation Unit) as saying that “Ivan Padilla and a companion were arrested.” And will both be presented to the media at the NCRPO HQ in Bicutan. Then half an hour later Francisco called up a radio reporter and while off air clarified that Padilla had actually died at the hospital. At 10am during an NCRPO initiated press con, the Inquirer saw the drafts of two (2) press releases “one saying Padilla was captured, the other saying he was killed.” (source: Inquirer Tues Aug 3, 2010 page A8)

6. Ivan Padilla DID take a shot in the head, the bullet still lodged in his forehead but he was still able to talk while handcuffed BEFORE being dropped off at the Ospital ng Makati. Now – on the subject of being ‘dropped off’ – yes, says ‘M’ – her Kuya was merely dropped off and that when she got to Ospital ng Makati – there was no one there. No police officers, no media men. She even thought they made a mistake and they drove to the other Ospital ng Makati branch and then subsequently drove back to the Malugay branch only to find him there registered as “Mister X.” Her aunt, in fact, had to call and be the one to identify Ivan (through his tattoo, lean built and prominent features) – so he has records written under a “Mister X.” Now – both sisters and A started talking at the same time asking me if Ivan was already declared as ‘arrested’ or ‘captured’ – then why not identify or give his name to the E.R. nurse or doctor? Why ‘Mister X’ – and they also all wanted to know if that was standard operating procedure – to merely ‘drop off’ a dying or even DOA suspect? (Is it?) I just said I didn’t know but I will ask. It seemed logical to me to assume that that wasn’t standard. I have witnessed a crime scene post-murder last year and I know for a fact that the SOCO and the QCPD (where the murder of my friends Alexis Tioseco & Nika Bohinc happened) were very conscious about identification and not leaving them until most paperwork was done. At least even just for the identification.

7. They told me that the addresses on Ivan’s ID’s are not theirs. They do not live in North Forbes, nor do they live in Alabang.

8. Most reports either out and out or implied at the very least – that he died during the encounter and most definitely because of the gunshot wound. They showed me Ivan’s death certificate – it said he had ‘No permanent address.’ Male. 23 years old. Filipino. Signed by the Makati Health Dept (Licensed, Salinas, MD) Signed by his sister (Padilla). Signed by the funeral director (Laksamana). Verified by a de la Cruz – OIC Reg Division. Signed by the licensed embalmer of Funeraria Filipinas, Makati City (Fuster). A stamp that said “AUTOPSY FREE OF CHARGE.” And cause of death: Asphyxia as a result of blunt force to the throat. (T 71) Signed by V. Nolido, MD (Medico Legal Officer)

9. I cannot surmise on anything on this piece. I was even warned by my lawyer to just ‘stay away’ because it is safer that way. But in the face of a mother, a beloved, and younger sisters of someone who was murdered yesterday – how can I not write this? This is not a judgment on anyone – nor is it to shed light on anything. It is merely a narration of (as close to fact) as possible. And everything here is either on paper OR narrated first-hand by a loved one of the victim. We can pass our judgment on Ivan Padilla but certainly we cannot deprive his family and friends the right to ask questions. Clarity is usually the only comfort one can get during a murder. Even if it is ugly – at least it is the truth.

10. The Padilla family would like to ask for the help of the Commission on Human Rights to at least look into the matter and perhaps answer even just a few more questions. Some light in this tough time will really help. Regardless of how Ivan lived – his family has a right to know exactly what happened at his time of death. (read less)
(OFFICIAL FAN PAGE OF IVAN PADILLA)
The Young, Restless and Dangerous. Justice for Young Ivan
WHAT HAPPENED TO IVAN?
(as told to Gang Badoy by Ivan Padilla’s sisters, girlfriend, and mother)
FILED UNDER THE RETHINK MEDIA GROUP: an alternative media source.
(3 August 2010, Manila)

Without meaning nor wanting to, I am now tasked to write this piece.

Through the prodding of my niece who happens to be the friend of B, I found myself in the Correctional Institution for Women this afternoon... (read more)
Personal interests:
:long drives
:out of town
:the beac
:the mountains
:he loved to read books
:he loved music

aug 07 2006 no more us :)

2010-08-16T06:26:00.000-07:00

RISONS WHY I MISS HARLII- by mack rewrite

(ito ung pinaka malupet na sulat na natangap ko nun august 7,2007)

*mhamhie I miss you being by my side (24/7) tayo magkasama ee

*I miss your sweet voice lagi mo ako tinatalakan e

*I miss your warm hug that makes me comfortable so warm mhie

*I miss your hair that tickles me & wakes me up early in the morning ang kati kc me hehe

*I miss your scent that lingers me bango bango

*I miss when we tease each other lagi namn ako talo mhie gago ka kc e

*I miss the warmth of your body lalo na nung cold summer nights

*I miss the way you laugh laughing trip tayo khit walang nakakatawa

* I miss the way we hold hands

*I missthe times you just talk a lot ikaw ung tipong di nauubusan ng cnasabi

*I miss the way you walk jan obvious na pangas ka

*I miss the way you speak jan obvious na loka-loka ka

* I miss the way u care for me lalo na nung my skit ako

*I miss you coming over to my crib after class tapos fud3p tau no

* I miss eating with you khit lagi mo ako inaagawan

*I miss sleeping & waking up beside you yan ang pinakanamiss ko sa lahat

*I miss the way you trip on people who aint cool ja ka pinakamagaling

*I miss you huggin me everytime na nagluluto ako kunyari ayaw ko pa

*I miss you bringing me c2 and yosi ngaun ako na umiiskor

*I miss spending money with you lalo na kung my diska ako

*I miss the names you call me dhad dhie doodle makidoo makieat makiepal elmocoki at kung ano ano pang kagaguhan

*I miss you debating with me maliit man o malaking bagay nkikipagdebate ka skin

*I miss the conversation about everything lath na ata napag usapan na natin

*I miss your reaction pag pinapayagan kita gumimik ang saya saya mo e no

*I miss going anywhere with you san man dako ng baguio napuntahan na natin

*I miss our out of town trip PANALOW!

*I miss you getting annoyed ng mga taong kinabwibwisitan mo

*I miss your smell when you get drunk amoy matamis na redhorse

* imiss spoiling you lahat ng gusto mo hahaha MADAM

I Miss you MHAmhiE KOh!

___YAn Lng HAHaha.. iMISS MA SELF TOO

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from friendster comments

Talking bout the stuff that don't wear off
It don't fade
It'll last for all these crazy days
These crazy nights
Whether you wrong or you right
I'm a still love you
Still feel you
Still there for you
No matter what =)
You will always be in my heart
With unconditional love

this game the lesson's in your eyes to see
Though things change, the future's still inside of me
We must remember that tomorrow comes after the dark
So you will always be in my heart, with unconditional love
Just got the message you've been calling all week
enemies,

Never treated me bad, no matter who I was
You still came with that mhamhei,..,.,,.,

>>>>snxa tmang tmad magsulat kya tEsTi nlng><><><
:":"::::":"tecku u 4 being so nys.eventhough we mizunderstood several tyms but still we fixed it uPp ryt away....
><>>><...
and wen im w/t u talking&giggling is lyk everythinh is olGuD no worries no nothing its jst a plain happinness....

probably b'coz ur 1 of my inspiration&foundation,i mean its lyk ur being der 4 me'h as i CHANGE""""
""""and its lyk moving 2 another chater in ma'h lyf&moving on w/t u....

>?"?"?""""i left ol things behind and 4gotten wat had happened on my past&moving on 2 a whole newfresh life....;;Hoping that dis tym things would b better....tencku again&u know dat im olweiz hir 4 u watever happens I MUST STICK WID U 4 EVER>>>>>

PLS":::::::
i hope things would be better between us...ko's its hard 4 me'h 2 move on again"""}}}{{

sEe wEn i gEt tHa sTrEnGhT tO LeAvE

yOu aLwAyS TeLL mEh ThAt u NiD mEh

aNd iM wEaK cOz i BeLiEvE yOu

aNd iM mAd bEcOz i LoVe U

sO i sToP aNd tHiNk tHaT mAyBe

u wUd LeArn hOw tO aPprECiAte mEh

tHat iT oL rEmAinS tHe sAmE

BLOW me'h doWn mhEi"

tHaT u AinT nEvEr gOnNa cHaNgE.,.,.,.,

KhAtE I really didn't have to say much
Cause me alone
Just made you want to taste and touch
Don't be trippin if I run up in you and your whole crew
I'ma still let you know girl, that it's all about you.....

Don't baby, don't baby, don't let it go
No baby, no baby, no baby no
Don't baby, don't baby, don't let it go
My baby boy...
>
>
Just let it die
With no goodbyes
Details don't matter
We both paid the price
Tears in my eyes
You know sometimes
It'd be like that baby
>
>
Now everytime I see you
I pretend I'm fine
When I wanna reach out to you
But I turn and I walk and I let it ride
Baby I must confess
We were bigger than anything
Remember us at our best
And don't forget about
>
>
Late nights, playin' in the dark
And wakin' up inside my arms
Boy, you'll always be in my heart and
I can see it in your eyes
You still want it
So don't forget about us
>
>
I'm just speaking from experience
Nothing can compare to your first true love
So I hope this will remind you
When it's for real, it's forever
So don't forget about us
>
>
Oh they say
That you're in a new relationship
But we both know
Nothing
luv yah mhei miz ya tOo much e2
mhamhei ckoe mahal nah mahal ckoe yan
kht lgi kmi away
aiyt lang
xe nrrmdmn
q dn lng n mhal nya
ckoe kea la nah q
iisipin
azta mhei stay sw8 and much luv from meh
mwuahugstytyt
mixh yah much
f nabsa m n 2ng tezti ckoe
bettah think nah kng ano mga
llgay
moe sah testi nah bbgy
moe xaken
mwamwamwamwa
Luv yah mhei khate doodle doodle ckoe
msya lng aq pgksma kta pgwla ka
temang im incomplete mga
banat ehh noeh

and dats 4reaL
LUV YAH foexoe

k-nAsHtYtHuG--------->
----------------->>>>>>>>>>>>>>
----------->>>>>>>>>
E2 dOODLE DOODLE kOE
dnda yan
panalooo kxma
temang
mapapa-eng-eng
kah
sah
mga kalokohan
la lan doodle doodle ckoe
jejejejjejeje....

kht lagi kmi away
n2
mhal nah mhal ckoe xa
kxe mahal nya ckoe(kapal)
hmmmmmmm

snxa nah
sah
npakawlang
kwentang
tezti
tnx
sah
pagbbsa
and sa
mga
umeepal
akin xa
ang umangal
PaSLANG nGa'h....
hahahahhaha
FuK sa'h
naga2rir sa'h knya"""

UN LnG""""

I love the way you lie

2010-08-16T05:11:00.000-07:00

Just gonna stand there and watch me burn
Well that's alright because I like the way it hurts
Just gonna stand there and hear me cry
Well, that's alright because I love the way you lie
I love the way you lie

I can't tell you what it really is, I can only tell you what it feels like
And right now there's a steel knife in my windpipe
I can't breathe but I still fight while I can fight
As long as the wrong feels right it's like I'm in flight

High off of love, drunk from my hate
It's like I'm huffin' paint and I love it, the more I suffer
I suffocate and right before I'm about to drown, she resuscitates me
She fuckin' hates me, and I love it

Wait, where you going? I'm leaving you, no, you ain't
Come back, we're running right back, here we go again
It's so insane, 'cause when it's going good, it's going great
I'm Superman with the wind at his back

She's Lois Lane but when it's bad, it's awful, I feel so ashamed
I snap, "Who's that dude?", I don't even know his name
I laid hands on her, I never stoop so low again
I guess I don't know my own strength

Just gonna stand there and watch me burn
Well that's alright because I like the way it hurts
Just gonna stand there and hear me cry
Well, that's alright because I love the way you lie
I love the way you lie
I love the way you lie

You ever love somebody so much, you could barely breathe when you with 'em?
You meet, and neither one of you even know it hit 'em
Got that warm fuzzy feeling, yeah, them chills, used to get 'em
Now you're gettin' fuckin' sick of lookin' at 'em

You swore you'd never hit 'em, never do nothing to hurt 'em
Now you're in each others face spewing venom in your words when you spit 'em
You push, pull each others hair, scratch, claw, bit 'em
Throw 'em down, pin 'em, so lost in the moments when you're in 'em

It's the race that took over, it controls you both
So they say you'd best to go your separate ways, guess that they don't know ya
'Cause today, that was yesterday, yesterday is over, it's a different day
Sound like broken records playing over

But you promised her, next time you'd show restraint
You don't get another chance, life is no Nintendo game
But you lied again, now you get to watch her leave out the window
Guess that's why they call it "window pane"

Just gonna stand there and watch me burn
Well that's alright because I like the way it hurts
Just gonna stand there and hear me cry
Well that's alright because I love the way you lie
I love the way you lie
I love the way you lie

Now I know we said things, did things that we didn't mean
And we fall back into the same patterns, same routine
But your temper's just as bad as mine is, you're the same as me
But when it comes to love, you're just as blinded

Baby, please come back, it wasn't you, baby, it was me
Maybe our relationship isn't as crazy as it seems
Maybe that's what happens when a tornado meets a volcano
All I know is I love you too much to walk away though

Come inside, pick up your bags off the sidewalk
Don't you hear sincerity in my voice when I talk?
Told you this is my fault, look me in the eyeball
Next time I'm pissed, I'll aim my fist at the drywall

Next time? There won't be no next time
I apologize, even though I know it's lies
I'm tired of the games, I just want her back, I know I'm a liar
If she ever tries to fuckin' leave again, I'ma tie her to the bed
And set this house on fire

Just gonna stand there and watch me burn
Well that's alright because I like the way it hurts
Just gonna stand there and hear me cry
Well that's alright because I love the way you lie
I love the way you lie
I love the way you lie

Why Nurses Make the Best Lovers (Author: "Dageaux")

2010-08-03T07:31:00.000-07:00

Boring backstory: my boss and I were talking about how common it was to see IT gurus and nurses pairing up. Immediately afterward I see an article on the net saying that women prefer IT geeks to date for various reasons. So I put these thoughts together and realized that truly nurses are the finest women to take to your bed. Being a IT geek and apparently in high demand in todays sausage market and married to nurse myself I can say that nurses do indeed make the best lovers/girlfriends/wives. I decided to come up with a list of reasons why it is good to date, marry, or at least sleep with a nurse:

1.) They have almost no inhibitions. They have seen it all, legs ripped off, no problem. Is your penis shaped oddly? not only will they not be freaked out but can tell you the medical condition that causes that. You piddly ideas of kinky sex are nothing to these women. She probably inspected four penises before lunch today, she has no problems with "touching it"

2.) Nurses have good skills at using profanities. Don't get me wrong they can be ladies in the appropriate setting and are often the best hostesses at parties and social events, but as a general rule your average nurse can curse up a blue streak. This comes from situation in the operating room that most folks don't want to know about "Holy Shit did you see that fucking arterial blood spray out of that gunshot wound?" "For fuck's sake this is his fourth goddamned attempt at suicide? Can't this sorry piece of shit get ANYTHING right?". This can come in handy when you are shooting pool at the local biker bar or for that special talk you only hear in the bedroom.

3.) Any woman that can look good in scrubs = HAWT!!! they don't make that shit for fashion and yet so many of them looks so cute in that obnoxious green.

4.) They are truly caregivers. They can fix you after you stick a screwdriver into that power-supply....immediately after they stop laughing.

5.) By definition they are fairly well educated, and most are definitely above average intelligence.

6.) They have a great sense of humor. You don't work all day in the OB/GYN room and not develop a great (albeit slightly skewed) sense of humor, trust me on this.

7.) They have neat toys. As an IT geek I am fascinated by the stuff my wife brings home from work, free samples, disposables, and shit the equipment manufacturers give them. Want a device the size of an ink pen that you can use to burn off body parts? They make those. Need some stats, yea she has a whole set of the damned things. Knives? shieet they make knives so sharp they are dangerous to handle at all, even the blunt end. Needles, stitches, syringes, lubrication jelly, little machines that can take your scrotal temperature from across the room, I tell ya these girls got it all.

8.) While being wonderful caring women, they have no compunctions about yanking a knot in your ass should you act foolishly. Nurses are hard women and usually have an extremely sensitive bullshit-o-meter and almost no patience for any bullshit whatsoever. Most will put a knife in your ass if you fuck up then sew you up when you repent.

9.) They make more money than you. Unless you are a doctor, lawyer, or bank president, chances are your average nurse makes more money than you do. These women are in high demand and are paid very handsomely. She will always have a job, no matter where she goes her profession is in "Help Wanted" section of the paper. They also generally have good work ethics, they know that nothing of value comes without cost and they aren't afraid to get their hands dirty to accomplish a goal.

10.) Go get 'em attitude. there are so many stumbling blocks in Nursing school, so many chances to do something else, anything else. So many times where it is easier to quit than go on. Yet RN's have made it past all that. They have reached the pinnacle of their career. A nurse won't ever give up, she won't ever quit as long as there is even a remote possibility you may be worth saving. This too is a good thing in a relationship.

Thank God for our nurses.

Author: "Dageaux"

. aint thinkin bout you :)

2010-08-03T07:17:00.000-07:00

Wasting Time, Steady Tryna Get You Back

Get You Back In My Life

Yea You Don't Care,

It Used To Be You That I Like But I'm a Do What I Like
Tonight, I'm Goin Get Tipsy..

And I Ain't Saying That sHe Don't Love You..
But I Don't Think sHe Love You Like I Do
But It's Okay, It's Alright..

my fone Filled With A Whole Bunch Of men

I'm Not Looking For Love, Cause he's Gone
So Tell All The boys That The Bottles On Us
Get Your Drink On

I Just Wanna Have A Good Time And Keep You Off My Mind

When I'm Up In The Club, Really Turnt Up
I Ain't Goin Think About You

Ain't Thinking About You Tonight

..... :)

13th verse krew di mo pansin vid

2010-08-01T07:53:00.000-07:00

`di mo man pansin na ako sayo'y merong pagtingin,marahil di halata pero handang
itaya kht na balewala lng ang turing mo skin pagkat kaibigan lng ako sa paningin idadalangin
nalng na sana ay magiba sa akin ka mapunta .. :)

I loved you too.

2010-08-01T00:39:00.001-07:00

So many thoughts,

I don’t know where to begin,

I’ll start from my heart,

and what I feel within.

I still have feelings,

which haven’t changed,

because when you left me

my life was re-arranged.

I used to cry

so many times a day,

but lately those tears

have been fading away.

I am hoping that

my brighter day soon will come,

and maybe, just maybe,

I’ll find that special someone.

Yes, it’s been hard,

but I’m getting back my life,

I’ve even managed

to put away the knife.

I will find someone

who’s right for me,

who loves me

and lets me be all I can be.

Yet the thought of you and her,

is tearing me apart,

because you will always have a special place

in my broken heart.

Do I still love you?

Yes, I do,

but another part of me

is getting over you.

I never thought I would say this,

but I simply have to confess,

with each and every day that goes by,

I love you less and less.

I just wanted to be with you,

but now you’re gone,

and the time has come

for me to move on.

You meant so much to me,

in fact, you still do,

from the bottom of my heart,

I loved you too.

360 :)

2010-08-01T00:35:00.001-07:00

So that’s the way it is.
You can just go find someone else and let me go
Like you don’t know owe me a thing
But I can handle this, I’ve been through it all before
And you get yours and im gonna bounce back again

You can tell someone, that you’ll be there
And then walk away, like you don’t care
I’m not saying this cause im mad
I just want you to understand,
One day, its gonna catch up with you

What goes around comes around
Baby I thought you knew
Do somebody wrong for too long,
its gonna get done to you
And you did me bad and got away
Play me like a fool
Thought you knew, 360 is coming right back to you

You must be sitting on top of the world
Feeling like you’re finally free and you will see that it won’t be too long
Taking what you deserve, then you’re the one that somebody leaves
Then you’ll think of me and wish you never did me wrong baby

You can tell someone, that you’ll be there
And then walk away, like you don’t care
You might decide you want me back but it’ll be too late for that
That’s all I have to say

What goes around comes around
Baby I thought you knew
Do somebody wrong for too long
Its gonna get done to you
And you did me bad and got away
Play me like a fool
Thought you knew, 360 is coming right back to you
Thought you knew, 360 is coming right back to you

Just like the way that this world turns
Play the game that way and you’ll get burned
Thought you know, ohhh
What goes around comes around
Baby I thought you knew

Do somebody wrong for too long,
its gonna get done to you
And you did me bad and got away
Play me like a fool
Thought you knew, 360

What goes around, comes around ohhh (360)

Listen to your heart :)

2010-08-01T00:21:00.001-07:00

We all want to make things better in our lives,

but lots of times we just don’t know
where or when to begin.
Sometimes we are troubled about
something deep inside,
and we are afraid of dealing
with our problems because
we’ve been hurt before,
and we remember what hurts can bring.
Making things better involves changing
but change isn’t such a terrible thing.

Life isn’t always easy.

No one ever promised that it would be.
But it can be wonderful at times,
and it is up to us to make those times happen.
Where? Beginning within,
When? With the dawn of each new day.
How? Listen to your heart . . .
and it really will show you the way.

When KHaTe is ..

2010-08-01T00:20:00.000-07:00

When khate is quiet…

Millions of things are running in her mind.
When khate looks down…
It means shes uncomfortable.
When khate is not arguing…
She is thinking deeply.
When khate looks at you with eyes full of
questions…
She is wondering how long you will be
around.
When khate answers "I’m fine" after a
few seconds…
She is not at all fine.
When khate stares at you…
She is wondering why you are lying.
When khate lays on your chest…
She is wishing for you to be hers forever.
When khate gives you her number saying
call me sometime…
she means she wishesfor a call when she gets home.
When khate calls you everyday…
She is seeking for your attention.
When khate wants to see you everyday…
She wants to be loved as much as she loves you.
When khate says that she can’t live
without you…
She has made up her mind that you are
her future.
Whenkhate says "I miss you"…
No one in this world can miss you more
than that
When khate is jealous about other
people seeing you more than she does…
its because she loves you and
misses you so much
When khate says "I love you"…

She means it. :)

Don’t look back– you’re not going that way!

2010-08-01T00:15:00.001-07:00

When you travel though life there are always those times when decisions just have to be made And the choices are hard and solutions are scarce and the rain seems to soak your parade!
There are some situations where all you can do is simply let go and move on Gather courage together and choose a direction that carries you toward a new dawn.
So pack up your troubles and take a step forward the process of change can be tough But think about all the excitement ahead if you can be stalwart enough!
There could be adventures you never imagined just waiting around the next bend And wishes and dreams just about to come true in ways you can’t yet comprehend!
Perhaps you’ll find friendships that spring from new interests as you challenge your status quo And learn there are so many options in life and so many ways you can grow!
Perhaps you’ll go places you never expected and see things that you’ve never seen Or travel to fabulous faraway worlds and wonderful spots in between!
Perhaps you’ll find warmth and affection and caring a "somebody special" who’s there To help you stay centered and listen with interest to stories and feelings you share.
Perhaps you’ll find comfort in knowing your friends are supportive of all that you do And believe that whatever decisions you make they’ll be the right choices for you!
So keep putting one foot in front of the other and taking life day by day There’s a brighter tomorrow that’s just down the road Don’t look back– you’re not going that way!

NO ChOicE??

2010-08-01T00:14:00.000-07:00

NO ChOIcE??NO CHOICE daw ako.Mali siya dun kasi for me, there's no such thing as NO CHOICE. Lagi yang meron,maaring napilitan ka lang gawin ang isang bagay pero hindi mo pwedeng sabihin na NO CHOICE.Madalas gawing dahilan ang no choice na yan, gasgas na nga kung tutuusin,napaka lame na excuse kumbaga.No CHoiCe??

i Know WaT Dem BoYsz LikE!!

GangsTer Na gagaNgstErin Mu Pa Haisxt NoT GoOd!!

tRyna dcDe TrYana Dcde..Jaja

liKe WatEvEr!!!

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