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Tuesday, June 30, 2020

It sure is rocky!


Few months after a heartbreaking experience, after all those months of crying, I realized I was walking on a different road. It sure is rocky but I can say that as I walk, I saw pieces of myself–broken. So I picked it up, one by one, and gently put back the pieces into my heart until I was whole again. And now I can say I had moved on and I'm taking all steps forward. One way of saying there's no turning back.

This might be the end, but our memories will never fade. It was a burden for me back then, but as time goes by, I keep moving, and somehow this burden was one of the reasons who taught me to keep going on. So I treasure them like diamonds as the saying goes diamonds are forever.
Well — my vision of life is different.. It's not all about the heartaches, financial, or family problems. Believe and have faith in yourself and you’ll get what you want, whatever it takes. Patience is still a virtue…

Talking about my present, I think I had a detour or something. I'm walking on a different path, a new road for me. The thing is, I'm walking with someone else. Well,  It took me a really long time to get here, and this someone who eagerly pointed a gun right into my chest, trusting him not to pull the trigger.
Can you get to your future if your past is present? Maybe the past is like an anchor holding us back… maybe, you have to let go of who you are to become who you will be

Tuesday, February 18, 2014

stuck

just when i thought everything was going fine– i stood still, not knowing where to go. Suddenly, I felt the pain I wish I never felt. I’m constantly bleeding, so now I ask. Will there be such magic that can kill the pain, when you’re totally broken?  I wish pain killers will do, a single shot of anesthesia (make it multiple shots) or something else that can kill the pain. People around let me feel that I’m stuck. Trap into a horrible cage I just cant let myself move on.
My heart is still holding on, longing for the same person who loved me. Now that were gone I don’t know if I could still carry on. I miss you, and you know that I really do. What am I suppose to do so I can let you go?
When will this pain ever end? Rivers of tears keep flowing down my cheeks, But I’m still holding on to something i want the most. How will i start living my life without you? Each time i wake up all i think is you. You think I’m strong but inside I’m weak, my heart is crying out so loud i wish you could hear how my heart breaks into pieces.
I never thought i would feel this pain, why cant i stop myself from  loving you? Why cant i force myself to take a step forward, when everytime i think of you it takes me three steps backward. Im heavily bleeding inside, i feel nothing but the pain in my heart. Its tragic of me knowing im stuck on you. and the most painful thing is, i just dont know what to do…